choices

i want to say the choices i have is like crazy not with life but with various things in my life hard to explain because if i do .... im sorry im so distracted  right now im in a car listening to chapter 5 trey songz bout to go to class my mind is like everywhere ill do thispost later on im that distracted

wtf is wrong with billy madison

ok im going back to class to get my insurence lincence 1-5sat 8-5 sun because of this i should be studing something im gonna do when i get done but im blogging because of something else im not gonna say what but i will say it changed me and i think i should listen to ex factor  by ms hill (smh again tho) like yesterday had so much shit it didnt feel likme one day woke up on swace floor went to sleep in moms bed (shes not here free crib till sat  :( im alone ) and i didnt think in that 24 hours or so that it could changed my opinon on so many things shit getting crazy with knives and pre rammy but i think its over like i wanna move on (to someone else ) but i cant fight the feeling i have around certain peple (this is what happen when u mix a raven with a dove) i kinda wish you could merge people then i wont be as bad actually if u merge some people from my fab 5 (main exes) it might be the perfect girl for me (ironicly not one of these fab 5think they are the onefor me they might be true but i doubt it) broke my skate wheel irode ixt for a while n felt so good i miss shadow(my skateboard) but thats a different story i gotta clean eat study then leave to take another quiz im gonna past one of these jawn  current mood =:l

i want my phone or personal computer (another quick post)

20 mins on the clock this time lets go
well i want a person Internet i mean i thank the library and all but i want to download and upload some music i fucking went off on that idk joint and i want the person it was about (hint one of my lisa millers) and the world to hear it besides that fact (17 mins) i have became more focused on art then just living i think the need to see hear and experience art is very important so im trying to make everything art pretty cool huh but anyway not that much has changed so much from the last post( had to change the video i was listening to ) i could stop here but im not even tho i have nothing else to talk about i have transpass and a few days so tomorrow regardless if someone hit im gonna catch random buses and start writing because i got concepts but i just need the right environment and my house is not one (changes song again) ironically the songs i wanna do is about the opposite gender and yet i have not one female type presence physically with me could that be the exact reason im making these songs ????(10 mins) maybe but i dont know because i .....just dont  and to correct what i said last time i dont need a women i extremely want one or maybe i do need one  hmm????



bye

quickest post ii ever did

oki got 12 mins to write a post shouldnt be soo hard but im in a public computer so everything is timed anyway today i got to certifacation one is for auto and home insureence the other is for debt (holla at me im doing things )  this month and the next i could be on my way to sucess i hope so im tired of being on the bottom (10mins) my lyrical content and flow/candence changed its almost scary about my skills im hungry btw didnt really eat all day once i leave tho ill get something to eat when i get home  but im proud of myself im actually makeing steps forward in life and next is a job then maybe school maybe (maybe) femaleswise idk because im not worried about them now (7mins) because as mr warhol said as soon as you sstop worrying about something it will come so the pyt will come when they wanna come my priorities should be god art and family in speaking of family alot of crime has been hitting philly and i got me a lil worryied my circle better not be involved any (awesome i have just been given an additional 15 mins which raised it to 20) but its now like i said peace and music and evolveing as a person hope i dont lose my uniqueness because to be honest thats why i dont wanna grow up also i got lost in the matrix not too long ago like i felt what i created in my head which is like weird it never happen but something happen in the matrix i got mad abaout it then in reality i was mad out of the blue (so if i think it emotionally could it change my mind emotionally ?) i wonder if i could finnally control my emotions but i get a phone on saturday or so hopefully
I WANT A WOMAN 

seems like i went contridicted myself but its true i want that love that a only a woman can give you





that nice fire and desire


(sigh 11mins left)


(sigh)
well i guess im done

peace,music,happiness

think like a man

tell me why this is a terrible concept ok its because u cant that do that every man is different just like how every man is different ii just saw two movies [this and ted ] where the girl wanted  to change the man its the best friend who's the enemy or its just an outside force that fucks with it simply put you cant rush love you cant out trick it its a wave that cant really be surfed on or controlled neither sex is Neptune [the god of water]   dont lie lying make things worse on both parts being a player in a man is overrated n cheating in women is also overrated visea versea i have more things to say but mind is semi preoccupied shall returned .......

idk whAT to do

my life has been so confusing mainly because i need to release some thoughts. on a lot. more then this blog can contain or handle i wanna some real ears to listen to me. i got my best friend back well she never left be we talk now..again kind WEIRD SINCE I JUST MADE A SONG About her. its crazy when i make a song about someone they wanna talk to me again. I'm still releasing it but i hope i don't lose my friend again .its like 6 n i wanna know why I'm up oh yea i took a nap out of boredom i have been interested in Andy Warhol lately [thanks mause] so i was looking him up earlier. he was a very eccentric person I'm hungry but i gotta workout i cant wait to go to Florida because i wanna see some new location some new people might see some pyt for some sugarwall action random i know and yes I'm no longer putting periods just because i choose not to and i am lazy to put them where they belong when i proofread this lately i have been writing bout women i thinking next might be a sex song i haven't done that in a while and i wanna see if i have evolved enough for it to matter like would i be talking about the same thing idk my typing skills are increasing [typing skills +250 pts] I'm proud and pissed because that means i type extremely    too much well time to eat after correcting my few spelling errors i wanna kiss someone or hug or put someone on my lap n look them passionately in the eye and tell them how i feel

sensitivity and vulnerability

all im gonna say is some thing maybe should stay in the matrix but its hard when you become vulnerable to someone. maybe i should just kick everyone out the matrix and start anew. it sounds like a good idea. it hurts easier when people are in it anyway. at least the core is not affect completely key word COMPLETELY  feeling upset to upset to put the signature. its been like this for a while . furthermore i have an interview(s) u have to go on tomorrow so no staying up for me :(

architect might shut this down

Ok the glitch with the matrix is the fact it is artificially made to make me happy. A false sense of security that leaves me unharmed by the deadly sun rays that the outsiders(reality) create. Ironically that's the problem people will not understand where my heads at. i walk the streets without a care just worrying about how i feel and people will take it as i forgot them or don't care about them. The phone is the most bi sexual thing in the world it goes both ways,and its been sooo many days where i text or call i get answering machine or a convocation that ends quickly with a "k" or a "lol". so what do you want me to do. do you want me to be happy let me be in the matrix. i'll still communicate with the outsiders with the operator but let me stay in my zone. but since i cant the architect might try to shut down the matrix. Letting my unstable mind with the wildest imagination run rapid in the city of Philly not a good fucking thing. especially since self destruction is not a problem but sometimes a solution for me. AND WHERE THE FUCK IS ALL THESE COUPLES COMING FROM I THOUGHT CUFFING SEASON WAS A FEW MORE MONTHS.It's really depressing me because i want it soo bad but i won't be moved to do something i'll regret. Need me some money,love,shit right now i'll just take a pair of ears to listen to me.  SOMEONE FUCKING LISTEN TO ME !!!

iwant to be abused.....in a good way?

lately being pulled in and out the matrix i have a feel a mixture of aggression and pain and pleasureand relaxed so i guess a lil feel of pain is a feel good feeling like i was singing a song and i was ripping off my shirt and scratching my skin it felt good idk well i just depressed myself idek y i feel depressed i was just writeing this post now i feel like im worthless :( i guess im going to sleep now andi guess i got my wish my mind will now abuse me this is my fault for leaveing the matrix to help other people and other shit

only one person will(might) get this post

ok let me explain this is my digital matrix.
the real matrix is the place in my mind where everything works how i want it too.hence why im not as angry (not aggressive) as i was before. its literally a mental escape. ok now since i  explained that let me say this there might be a breach in my matrix. what is a breach? an invader,an unwelcome guest ,a stranger if you will. now this breach is unlike any other like there are some i can control (wish not to have any but sometimes i just have to)but its some i can not. this is one of the can not's. now i can honestly say that i am prepared for this breach to an extant but idek when is it gonna come where is it gonna come from or even if its gonna come. i have been told by my intelligence (both domestic and foreign ) but it could be wrong. the keymaker(the one who gave me a physically representation of a lock in my mind ) is come home in a while. only for a day tho but one is better then none and if she use the same key correctly she might be Ramona  MIGHT BE!!! I was talking to my two lisa millers and i remember why they are my lisa millers but anyway i gotta stay vigilant about this intruder [looks back and forth ] PEACE

MUSIC+LOVE+PEACE= HAPPINESS
(MENTAL)+(EMOTIONAL)+(SPIRITUAL)= (PHYSIOLOGICALLY)



who agrees with that statement

yoo sample material

people wont get you anymore ....good :)

The farther i get in to the matrix (my own head )the less pain seem to hurt. (this feels like a deja vu ) For an example like with the dealing with loneliness n stuff like that. Mainly with the females like i was hitting on one girl(well setting up for flirting to take over) n my savager cousin come in n take her( smh family). Neway the only reason why im dwelling on it so much is because she lives in Philly and into the same hip hop as me (rare). So its like i could randomly see her like fate has this one. Even tho i leave almost everything up to fate/god. Its like if i was meant for it it would happen i wont pussy foot around. However the only thing im gunning for is rapping and skating but mostly rapping. Idk when i make a good song i just cant wait to see people faces. Even if its the look of confusion but there would be another song added to the mixtape (without my prior knowledge) and i went off in a positive way. (in my lupe type shit) I've been using metaphors and other shit like that. Similes im saving for freestyles. I've stop talking to my lisa miller slowly but surely and its weird we used to talk every night like a habit. Now we barley talk kinda odd. Letter to mecca is done but im might do it over. Letter to Katie is written and i have to write a letter to Shirley. I don't think Jocelyne or Brianna will get a letter. Idk know why i wouldn't know what to say forreal Jocelyne is mention  in the song cars but Brianna is real  hard to write about but not impossible. I got my 2 lisa millers to write about one is already wrote but i need a song about them together. So basically i need to talk about my envy Adams , my Kim pines, my 2 knives chau, my 2lisa millers,and my Romona. (idk who the fuck she is at all :() Oh well ill find out when the time is right. Basically leave it all to fate (omg sounds like a song title) ok its 4:43 am and i still need to proofread this and ill write a song later on today or after I'm done blogging. Its just I'm a lil tired from working out and skating even tho i couldn't really do that much due to rain. I'm listening to radiohead and next is Nirvana ok
ne way
peace
love
music
=
happiness

july4-5

the parkway thing i have been talking about it all day so i don't wanna talk about. [at least right now] i am in the house alone because my mom  had to go to my cousin house since she is outta town. I should have went to my dad's crib but i didn't. I gotta take out the trash n shit here. Neway i'm seeing a difference with these work outs. My arms are getting more defined n cut. That awesome! The mixtape N.S.M.Y.L.E is almost done and do i like the final product? not so far. It's not the fact i'm not on that many songs [im on like 3 ] but its a tad repetitive.  [no i didn't really have a chance to throw a concept their way]but i dont like it  for a few reasons 1. everything was though email it was like no creative control it was like "the concept is this" and since you couldn't vote you would just write to it. 2.the concepts didn't differ from every other underground group. 3. there is no type of chemistry at all. If i didn't say we was in a group no one would have known. I mean we could have got together and said i'm saying this that and the third. So someone else could do something off of it  but no instead everything was a secret until you hoped into the booth. In groups that is a important component like no.1 but nope we didn't have it. It seem like we just wanted to get the songs done instead of just rapping with your family. Whatever this is the first [and as far as im concerned the last] mixtape. Also i forgot 4. peoples egos. Now i might fuck around say "i put my foot in your ass" but its a joke i didn't for real because i was only on 3 songs. i'm not even gonna front that pissed me off its about a 12 song mixtape and im treated like a fucking feature. If black hippy did that or if slaughterhouse ill ask what was point of him on any songs. If they minus ab soul or Joe budden on all songs except 3 i'll say wtf was the point. [like once again WTF] With the females man, still kinda empty with this shit. So i'm still solo skating [won't get it until i explain it ] but maybe i don't need a girl but a woman. but fuck i didn't even dabble that much with girls let alone women. I'm 20,broke,living with my mom,slightly immature,slightly self indulging and i stay in my head [when i'm not releasing on my internet matrix[this blog] or my music] that's not attractive to many females at all. So because of that its girls for me 18- ? [i think its only 2 17's year old that is an exception] but yea im about to go listen to an song we did today 
MUSIC
PEACE
LOVE 
=
HAPPINESS

i feel like crying

i don't know if i should make a professional blog or stick with this one.i might just make this a personal blog but the way its made its seem like its for someone to read it  instead of me reading it. i mean i don't really make that many 'happy'post. Neway im living with regret with most females. scratch that, most females let me go and i have to sit back and smile and take it. well im sorry i cant do that. i feel like everyone wanted me and i had a choice. now its like i have not one option like not even a fuck buddy [didn't really like them but its something]. this is a big sign that i rush into relationships because i feel alone. maybe im meant to be alone to figure out why when i am in a relationship it fucks up. its a team effort or sometimes no effort at all, but its me with the streak of 7 months max in a relationship.[but a 6 month average] its more then some but for others that's baby steps. i wanna a long term one like a year[at least a year]and some change and still going strong. maybe its the fact i cant find anyone who likes what i like how i like it. for example i like to walk for long distances and just talk and consider it a date. most girls really don't like it. the whole point of a relationship however is to gain something from that opposite person maybe have some similar ideas but still different so in a way being in a relationship cures ignorance and intolerance [which is probably why i accept many things]n now for the title i feel like crying because depression is starting to be like a drive by of lack of emotion or just a lack of a good emotion leaving me melancholy. i wanna to be babyed but i cant i have to be a man and push on. i honestly fear if i stay alone for a certain period i would be lost in my own fantasy. mainly because its the only way i could make myself happy without the help of drugs. so technically its like my matrix the longer i stay in the more i believe it and become engulfed by my creation. that is how i think. no one can stop me from thinking that way.and on a side note people are getting mad at oeros because of their support for gay marriage. OK 1 let people love who they gonna love gender ,age ,race,creed, religion and/or culture shouldn't stop love 2 really y'all boycott a cookie company because of their belief smh at you anti gays 3 im hoping this is not just a scam for people to buy oeros out of rebellion. i have no idea what they are suppose to be covering up with this gay tread [i no its actually gay people but people now are blowing it all out of proportion because Obama said he support it ] Jesus Christ guys let people live how they wanna live its a short life neway might as well try to be happy in the process 'i am not' im bout to turn the ac back on and go to sleep ps the sun is comming up a sun rise to me is one of the biggest slaps in the face to single people now i sleep  
if i dont cry first or cry myself to sleep
peace 

destructive emo-od

ok lets start off by saying im pushing people away not on purpose but its like y put up a front if i feel some type of way y not tell someone right neway  back to the topic so I'm learning a lil bout my self these last few days like i came close to start loving my self but the afor mention stopped me i don't get this i have low self esteem they tell me to raise it up i raise it up a tad n im cocky i start almost loving myself and im the one with the problem and because of this i have a whole imaginary world in my head this is the first time this was mention on here n to some people. i wont tell u what is in my world but I've been there alot lately and you know what idc. it a great way for me to be happy even if its artificial way. i finished the scottpilgrim books omg one of the best books ive read the movie seems sub par now but they did have 6 books to flesh out people  n idea but the last book is about your problems how instead of run from them like what Ramona and Scott do you have to face them head on its a great metaphor n i have decide too as well but its been pushing away so i guess here is the warning to everyone EVERYONE IF YOU GET PUSHED COMPLETELY AWAY NOT MY FAULT ITS THE UNIVERSE'S WE Probably NOT MEANT TO BE IN CONTACT WITH EACH OTHER. on a lighter note i have decided to go to school its just ccp but im gonna go back up there and finish my forms and go. i guess my real fear is that it might stress might stress me out and ill have no way to have fun because ill be an official [in my eyes] adult however i have a whole world i can do things in. so as of now my reality would be my dream world. so yes im gonna be lost in the matrix believing what i wanna believe and not taking neone in unless they probe deep enough in my head and that's not easy and a lot of girls and guys have tried but ultimately failed since its almo0st  impossible . iknow you are thing well whats the emo part for well i have been WANTING to cut myself lately but it haven't. mainly because if i do ill once again develop a habit of doing it. n these psych ward bills anit cheap so i gotta be my own lover,father,mother,therapist,friend and enemy all at the same time. this is not for the weak so ill try to lean on god if i get weak if i dont feel his presences that's is when ill quit. but as of now team of me noone get me more then me matter of fact nooone get me except for me the writer loner stoner dreamer and make believer J3TT BLIZZI

jett vs the world names

knives chou=mecca envy=shirley  kim=brianna that should clear up some confuseing and my ramona ="stacy"my imaganary girlfriend (yes i have a imagnary girlfirndidc if its weird it helps me cope with the feeling of being alone )shes white (lately ben having jjungle fever idk y ) with blonde hair 5'2  with heels on :( im a mess a longer update about shit later i also wanna say i finished the scott pilgrim books one word =mindblown ill tell u later i think i should make nadirah knives and kim would be mecca and brianna would be envy ill think about it or maybe nadirah could be lisa

bingeing on my birthday

ok en tho my birthday was saturday im bingeing now n i like the way it sound neway quick update my 4 best friendsn my gf forgot like wtf (i should say 4 of my best friends i have more) like i remeber their but its fine im planin on commiting suicde soon i didnt tell you that ? oits apparent u dont read this blog i said new years my bday or christmas im texting this n im texting fast so ne mistakes i apologize with music smh we moving foreword but still smh i feel like scott pilgrim (n becase of brianna i have to keep reading them because they are as addixtive as crack) the one in the book not mike cera but yea commiting suicde or having an attempt some time soon if i don come back im dead n happy peace

Dis[is]tence rough draft

Dis[is]tence rough draft

lenore anti love machine (completely stolen from charles hamilton well the title at least )

why the title idk 


















but i can guess why i picked that title (insert bitching and moaning about females) and (insert more bitching) howabout the fact that(insert bitching about a completely different topic) 










oh yeah i turned my phone off because i was getting people ... in general but i will random turn it on because i want to know who noticed or not im kinda hoping for no new messages or calls why (insert another drop)














well i kinda dont want to depend that much on technology so this can be a nice little experiment 


i haven't sleep at alll im not  tired 
i will be around 10 maybe get myself a red bull










oh yea i was smoking im stressed dammit you complaining about it make it worse 










DUH DUMB ASS PEOPLE WHO HAPPEN TO READ THESE RANDOM POST 


THE HELL I WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE GET A LIFE 
LIKE I KNOW I DONT HAVE A LIFE BUT YOU HAVE LESS OF A LIFE THEN ME 




GO ON FACEBOOK MYYEARBOOK TAGGED OR TWITTER DO SOMETHING ELSE WITH YOUR TIME 












BYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

morebs please

ok my friend (well he was really acting like one lately) is in a coma due to acar crash due to  his gangster friends (who btw left him in the car rubble(what good friends)) ii guess due to us insulting him but everyone in the group is insulted im worried more about his brother vic because he might want revenge but i cant help but think this is my fault (isthat selfish) because we could yave took him back before but he did betray us continuously but ugh idk what to think about this subject  im still in delaware currently in the middle listening to be with kat between girls,music and friends i havent once thought about a job im starting to feel like ch a lil a homeless(wait ... i have a home2 actually) music artist who is struggling with this life and my stubbornness ,personality, past and my mind keeps me back i dont want a sob story because i dont need one and wont like them but its a blog for a reason and ill use for the reason of getting things off my chest besides rapping since all i rap about is girls now (in process of writing middle name dames vol1 :be peparered to hate me )

all alone

yo i would say im buggin but im not i love so fast (being IN love not that much) but yea because i love hard love fast love right love wrong go in go deep go go hard and live love long (thanks briana latrice) because of this most time i want the person im loving all the time thats not how it works i lost so many because i loved hard i loved fast if u give it up when i just met you  if i love right i wouldnt be alone(clever) but i am idk but some how my gf (if that what she still is ) story dont make sence ok she said she only talk to me n sohe so busy she cant most of the time but yet she told she was talking to her ex (double nono) and her myyearbook status says she need text buddies (WHAT!!!!)why all that you may wonder ummm let me see the last text i got from her is may 8th its almost june so who do she want to text her not to mention her status says single n many ask y am i holding on tbh im really not its like a slight grip of memories  of good times in the honeymoon stage (which was short lived compared to my other gfs) sad but true but i think its over but enough about that (this might be a long post) back to this music shit everything in my life is fuckin it up n shit im getting pissed about im so bummy sleeping at so and so house not to go home on some ch shit we are more similar then one might think real quick to the few blog critics out there who like saying my blog is a grammar and spelling nightmare (there is a nice handfull) idc you dont have to read because my new line is check the blog

HEYZEUS [savior]

HEYZEUS [savior]

she /her

she really doesnt understand that she means alot to me she loves what we repersent but dosent love we as an couple of kids its nothing thst i did  but as i grow older  my tolerence get lower we text back an forth but the reponse gets slower
i love her see her as a lover but not suposee to be undercover wantimg her more n more idk whats in store but i belive its the cure to the bore/dom n the loniess make me miss her with every lonely kiss i love her she loves me  if i cant have it all then it coiuldnt be 

             BOW !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im going off the grid 
peace 

YEA WHERE THE FUCK AM I IN THIS LIFE

ok this the last post(not really) i just don't feel like talking about the same shit go look at my previous post my first one was in 09 so when u have a lil free time go look at them but today i could have recorded but i didn't the last two song i was on was done terribly but that's my fault either i was too low or ..... too low. For some reason i cant rap in front of my friends (DON'T FUCKING ASK ME I DON'T KNOW WHY) i want drugs (you said that before fat ass )ummmm i didn't feel right today(......) yea i wanted to commit suicide (now i know u said that) but i was serious i was on the ledge and i was about to jump in the water maybe about 4 stories up it was pretty big n idk what stopped me it really wasn't because of the people in my life or whatever i have no ambition motivation confidence or any of that bullshit  idk what was it when i got off i couldn't listen to music and feel nor rap to it( u never could u fat bitch stankin pussy) thought of college and my future on the way home but yea might be the last post(no it wont) because  said what i had to say

GROWING UP IS OVERRATED

OK IN 2 MONTHS ILL BE 20 AND AS A TEENAGER I DON'T FEEL SATISFIED OR FULFILLED WITH THE RESULT NOTHING HAPPEN THAT WAS BIG N ACCORDING TO MY DAD THIS MARKS THE YEAR OF MY STARVING ARTIST PHASE WHAT HE DON'T KNOW IS idc to be homeless not something i want to be but if its no way out hey fuck it i wont be school like i thought due to my dad he swear its a scam and he want me to be in the art school of Philadelphia like i don't wanna do what u did bull but whATEVER UMMM MORE ABOUT BEING AN ASS LATE TEEN OK ACCORDING TO SOCIETY MY REBELLIOUSNESS STAGE SHOULD BE OVER AND I BECOME AN ACTIVE MEMBER OF SOCIETY FOH fuck the government the world till i die still wanna to kill america and i still wanna blow up the world i need to wash my hair N WHERES THE FUCK IS MY JOB enough complain about stuff that's out of my control but i don't like telling my problems and shit like this to neone but my blog and my music foh

birthday wish lists

ok i was supposeto make this awhile ago but here it is 1.skate shoes 2. rockband mic 3. a meal from micky ds(seriously ) 4.a scott pilgrim vs.??? book (neone would do) 5.a simple happy birthday 6. saints row 3 7. 3 milkshakes from newhere(nefavlor ) 8. hug n a kiss (limited ppl i swear if neof yall put yall crusty ass lips on me) 9.some captain cruch ceral 10. dont stress me out thats it ummm yea i think all besides saints row 3 areunder 30 dollars

this is me u gotta learn how too laugh at urself sometime and i find this funny lol

SOPA changes name to CISPA

fuck love = add love

is bascily u nolonger the focus in the relaiship [im not gonna complain on this one] now example [ [not one of my personal ones] she in it for something else[money fame or "it looks nice '] he want something eles[sex] she want anotger not another[ emotion connection not pyscallnor mental] and he dont want to cause pain [ breaks up] its add love loseing focus on the fact that a relation ship is in for love and nuffin else soo everybody who reads this let me ask u do u have add love?

or how about ur parner do thjey have add love

take a second think

about

it

peace

how

aobut

me

u

ask

i jst wanna be happpy on that note........

the question why

should i give a fuck about the topic or situration if u dont i wont neither and on that note let me saythat right now im in a psychcitic mood right now for one 2 i m feeling a tad bitsuicideal and 33 im upset so mixed together that is a resipe for disazter but im oot gonna speak my mind for the fouth time this week it couse probelm so what im gonna do is be happy fake my happiness for a min thats all its about ruight happiness so ill happiness and see if it makesw u nhappy and u is neone who reads becuz nobody is profect i nrrd some drugs right now or to cut my.... nvm

PEACE

WELL FOR YALL AT LEAST

UMMMMMMMMMM

NUFFIN ELSE TO SAY NOW

shut the fuck up and kissme

thats the name of a song its about the diffuculty of reliships in that"awkward phase" where u gettin to know.people likea potinal bf and gf the defanation of dating basicly nice huh

is it her soul that i love ....... is it her soul that i love or

her body i love her work of body i cant treat like shes just nebody now thats a ch song called omg whos that now u prob askin y did i quote that the answe is idk it sound nice and was in my head"j3tt now u on the subject of females whats good with that" what u mean female"yea dickfart females" well my aunt gettin married idk when cause i wasn invinted smh ironicly my friend birthday is today [happy birthday alisha] an i got a reason why my gf was "neglatein" me she focusin on school ok(in my ch shepretty ) but my best friend has no excuse known her for 2 yrs last month and nd never saw her anit that a bitch (didnt call her a bitch) but itsjust .....o look at dat dont feeellike talk8in about it laziness at its finest "finish it u fat shit"ok its just like wtf i wanna hang out with feamles because some of yall point of veiw be crazy n shit tbh i be bored like now but i dontlike my friends forthere body (i just want to make it a full circle sorry tahts its forced" ar yall but y the fuck jerry slide down a pole f wrong with u jerry peace

what i think about 4 am

ok its quiet i dont even hear my fan my mom took it out my window [who told her to do that i had a nice tempture with the conforter and a fan on low] but the thing i i hear is the type of my bloggin and judgein by sound i can type fast but not accurere and if i listen even farther i hear the faint sounds of cars drivin blocks away because its so quuiet that even sound from afar can be heard i just fine this tranquil not hearing"ayo where my shit at ,nigga ill fuck u up stop playing with me" and of course " i got thate green out , lusys lusy" [a lusy is one loose cig just in case u didnt know] but neaway idk know what to do hopefully ill get thisrite aid job get some money save it up and get a place thats kinda on my mind for like that longest i want a place where i can come and go when i please i can eat nething and take it up with me only wont worry about nebody and record [ swore i was going to say partys naw thats not me im not about that life] but im hungry bout to fuck up some spitgetti and did u know this is probely my longest post without the depression and that great u guys im growin up a lil bit yaaaaaayyyyyyy[kermit voice] umm idk what more to say oh yea i got writers block for one reason i got a lit cas3 of add i m tryin to do it all withthe skatein the video games the hair styles yea im been doing everything but what im suppose to which is rappin or writng to be excant its kinda pissing me of tho cause i used to be the shit n now i cant think of one punchline call it lazy no because 8im doing other stuff i swear on everything i will write and complete a song today and i will put my all in it not every song i put my all in turn out hot its just help me break from this funk of qritting i can freestyle and freestyle well but yea im done im getttin real thirsty and hungry i wish i had a better day tomarrow oh yea today was ass it was just mainly disappointmentand bored which explain why im up at 4 i went to sleep at 11 i brung that around full circle huh well im eating and going back to sleep peace and much love to ya

blood on the ground

the cold hand touch my hot face

incubus echos in the background

us in the foreground

nufin can break this moment '

except me and you

but more of u and i react to ur plan

but my plan is a lil different

instand of cutting u and leave u to die

im cuting myself giving up

btw i did try

randumb poem it was on my mind

im start listiing to rock[music] more and write a song aday about my emotions because i hate the fact that swace is catchin up to me [its the flow then the lyrics ] but i surpassed him before and ill do it again n btw ...... i forgot o.o thats not good

peace

10 reason y im bad at relationships

1 get bored fast
2 fall in love too fast

3 i am emotion unstable

4 do my best not to tell how im feeling[execpt to my blog]
5 noone take the time to understand ;u could connect it to 4

6 i compare our relationships to others [could be a postive]

7 sometimes selfish

8 broke

9 love too hard [if that make a sence]

10 im me wont change unless needed n that fact that im all these negative traits plus more rolled in one

im tired really because o skating this life n other type of bullshit its like i odnt even go to the liberary nemore maybe because i cant share my intelent [if thats spellled wrong ill look so stupid] same goes for my rhymes i belive in mind that noone whas to hear them but idc about that well wait i haveto because as ofnow i have no work ethic the last time i looked for a job was feb the last time i wrote a rhyme was last weekbut im done complain i gotta eat some noodles nw should make some tea as well oh and im suppose to see my friend to marrow but idk

i scream what i want and i scream

love trust passion

sex with emotion connection

love with a lust for passion

too much to askfor in this world or too much top ask for one girl [tee hee]

butto be honest that what i need

to love me

need me

want me

please me

now a girl didnt do tis that y we broke up ill explain in greater detail next time

peace n im notsingle btw

and so it begins it

but idkwhre to start....let me take it back i want to stop talking to everybody (everybody?) EVERYBODY dont ask y look down at my previous "depressing" post but have an date either april 1st or april 20th y because i want to find out shit bout kme and other ppl n to chu u no i need u its just its soo much u cant handle like 247 (well kinda) n its not "possible" but w\e im tired both ways pysically mentally n btw im hearing voic3s they different pitches then mine peace

trayvon

ok im pretty sure everyone knows about him and im more mad at the race of the child then the crime u wanna know why because thats the focus not the fact that a grown ass man killed a child no the factt that a WHITE man killed a BLACK child and u have to ask ur self if u see an guy on the corer what u thing" oh u yea he looks like a college gragrate"so even in our race we have racism u dontr know how many times i ve herad "nigga why u skateing u anit white or yu listening to rock u and white t" this limit us in a box and by us i mean the human race but as sooon as a eventthat invole a race hurting black its a probelm its a n uproar but what about lil tyreek that got shot byu jamalor nicki minaj big sean makinsexual music that the world listen to and have sex and when i mean world so that y by 18 most womren have already had a child or children(statics) n whos race the black race so hush that black shit up becaue u cant be agaisnt zimmerman but support ymcm its he same team to take out balck ppl

that 200 post lookkinda good

its been 2 yrs since i started this blog and i started it to be a way for me to say nmy ideas because i belive myspace was still poppin at the time and facebook was aight n i hate facebook still but i might go back to it recently i have used it as an digatal diary talking about my dayand such and andlately ive used it for a theripist its like my blog is not gonnna get mad at me becvaue im geeting on it nervousrs or it dont have problems to juggles so i wont worry about it rejecting due to frecsration so blog please continue being my digatal ear when noone else wanna listen

200th post

but yall dont care for my 200th post ill tell a story idreamed i was in the psycho ward for cutting myself to the point of passing out and i was there in the bed rocking back and forth really losing i did soome teeth chating thing (like perry the platuspus ) and when it comes to visting it was my friends and shit but something shocked me (i wont use names but they will know who they are ) blu and pikachu wasnt there they never came once(neither did bb but she came in the end ) so i gotta belive maybe they dont want to be in my life or i dont need them as much as i thought but i knbow i wanted them because during the dream cried for them but it was more that i cry he more suicidal i eould get and i wouldnt get better idk whatdo this mean ? ibut lately i been more love full ?( meaning neeed affrtion n shit so affectionite?) but i cant control it im gonna lt u in on a sercet i sleep with a pillow and pretend its a girl who sleeps with me and hold me back (commence the laughing ......................................................SILENCE ) wish i didnt have to resort to this but i do leting my imagaination run wild and start to be in love with the lover inside me which means maybe ill llearn to love me and staop depending on people and yes i depend on people alot of people by the way if i couyld read mind to see who like me r dont and who love me ithis would be soo much easier .......... i want to make this long but long with a reason oh yeah im deleteing my face book or just wont get on it because noone listen to what i got to say but if a popular person says it its 23 likes and 11 cimments the only time u would hear my opion about something would be in a song (anit no point of trying to cry and act u like care about what i say so ill speak no louder then a song to show u gotta to listen to me neway) but i guess thats about it good afternoon good night good morning good life peace

FUCK EM ALL

OK IM BOUT TO CH MOST OF U PPL

meaning im not gonna say when or if iam but im not talking to noone unless its absolutely serious u 52 wondering y im doing this well to simply put it i dont know honestly it just crazy now n i dont feel like im relevant or anything like that i been doing this for a while by mistake n too be honest where the fuck do i fit in at but im not gonna get into all that just an heads up n i am still writing lyrics and im really starting to hate this fone n the voices in my head are now insulting me alot lately sad im a bad joke noone laughing and repeat it because it is truly funny but it was something so bad that it gave an reversed response anit that bad thing idc nemore right umm yea

DONE

2 time pokemon champion

well this title have nuffin to do with the sub ject of this post my grandfather is in the hospital and it made me think back when going to his house was someimes enjoyable like my cuzin was there and i had friends on that block but it all changed thats the one flaw with growing when ur young u wanna be a teen when u a teen most times u wanna be and adult and on june 9th i willno longer be consider a teen and when ur an an adult u wanna be kid again well ikinda wish i could be 3 or 4 again no worrys about : death money money happiness college work love life all u gotta do is wake up eat ceral go run outside like ur crazy come back in n do it again ......is it sad that is what i do now 17 years later and the same shit ugh foh listening to dyme a duzin or some other artist til i go to sleep night well morning

know im takin about yall

so im sick right now its 3 n i was suppose to be outsid3 having fun or something but me not im watchin deliver us from eva now n this movie is pissin me off evern more so im stuck in here untill like 5 or 6 i need new friends with my antisocial ass foh but its alot of bs i gotta deal with ceck this out in order to escape reality i go into my own world when i skate i act likeim shadow the hedgehog human form n escape taht way i hate ppl so i relate to others and didnt i say this last time but its trueeeeee where my....whatever

im

im hard...ly able to be considered a good guy i have no reason to blog but to make a post i hate my life some people in it the situration for me and them all i want is the love i want is that too hard to ask my relgion is now a rollercoaster of ideas and thought like i know we should follow him but he dont want us to be happy ? like really maybe i get it when i grow up some more i dont have a job a social life or friends that live close its just shadow (my skate broad) baby black (my mp3 player) and ebonys mans onxy but thats enough but u wanna know why tthey are the only ones? because none of them can talk but they still feel if i have a bad day my mp3 player will last longer and shadow will go faster its like they are the only ones who get not oone human get me well bye peace

like wtf

im over here crying its more frustractions like i feel lost but somehow in a box its like i dont get then its like im the only one who does whats gonna be next ive attempted suicide somany times that i feel li cant die i need help long time ago i scarfice my happiness my happiness so i can be here for yall i hope yall is proud and happy imma run away but notone place to go i need some real help

death babies and delaware

i found out my unc died today due to heart atack i wa talkin about him yesterday and talkin to him a few weeks ago he wanted to hear my music it just hit u awhile probley wont hit me till im in the house in his old pictures he looked like he had fun n shit he did its weird he had a video on his fone talkin about he out smh lime he knew but he died in his sleep which is peaceful but while in delawae with my grnadmom ad othe family members i notice that it was like 3 babies there cant help imaging thats an replcement of 3 souls that passed m other unc and my dads grandmom n im not as much upset as much as alil more detacated shit ofwgkta got famous around this age so what thefuck is stopping i need one my female bestie but really need my gf like now +think befoe u act peace

hahahahahahai got a new fone

im lying in bed listing to instrumentals most of them love ones did a verse for one its about ....... nvm but i saw a girlwho had 3different hair color lipsstick and mascara a pink top a blue tutu and black jeggens n had the furry leg warmers and dicked kicks but besides the people lookin at her like she was a hot mess i looked like she was hot and then i notice she was a girl i liked before it weird she always comes when i got someone ugh at the hot mess girl but ye igot a touch sceen fone but im getting use to it and i need a word for my fone and hot mess girl because both of them come when un needed like i used to los3 my old foneall the time now he all up on me give me some space how about clingy nasa or magums because that shit give me no space tmi but my arm is gettin tired lol peace yall

pand t

ill ratther get PIERCING then TATOOS idk y but i have been tellin ppl imight get a tougue im only half serious ABOUT GETTING ONE BUT I DO WANT a piercing of some sort n i need to start working out again i got a goal to have an acceptable [beach] body not all crazy b pumper [commence pumper dance] type husky but just sexy i cangoto NJ n they be like omg i wanna slob on his knob then i look down and be like where my dick go lol[ go watch odd future rella video] but im bored back to porn games and food

Self esteem Suide

you fat black stanking motherfucker
you a bad boyfriend bad son and a bad brother
im broke so i have to dress like a bum
i didnt even get my dipolma im so fn dumb
along with my family im bad at being a best friend
and rapping
what happen
when is this gonna end


[im done]

7pills 3cuts n3 hours later......?
nuffin happen
nuffin fn happen
NOTHING
FUCKING
HAPPEN
2nd S.A OF THE YEAR

the highlight of my day is prob gonna be going to the liberary foh i need a hug

ALON3

As much as im alone im supprised i never made post about it ..........ok it was menticon but never as a main topicn idc if i have its my blog but im not alone physically but it more of emotionally ,sexually (masterbation not her fault tho .....yet) n musically ii listen to trip hop nu metal jazz and etc but you see im different cant get along with people that well [my answer to my antisocial-ness] i guess
happy without me
i shouldnt givea fuck
writing sloppy
fuck trust
give it right up
but on the other hand
another man
can find what i lost

random poem.......or is it heres a nothter

fuck everyone around me some of them
dont want me to be happy
im used to fun but getting the f out
put it infront of happy to wonder y i pout
i walk to clear my mind or get away from problems
itsw funny how most times i start them
they say u snooze uu lose
well im only happy in my sleep idc if i lose


im done

I NO I HATE THE LOOK TOO

I try to make it look different but it came out lke this ugh i fuckin hate it
just like alot of peopple they hate me n i finally no y
i love too hard
but scared to fall n love
and they fall in love
n they are in it with me
its a said relaiztion i found out a whgile ago but its what evr
but neway
i have also notice my life now revolves around
games
porn
music
n food

that is terrible i hate the fact that it is true tho
lissten i dont have a job
ore going to school
or have friends

well i have friends there are either
A too busy to hang out or
B too far to hang out
or sometimes both
but ...
neway if yall cared
but yall dont because im never asked
the music is fine welll kinda

i got consepts n lyrics but
too many distractions
neway

LOVE
LIVE
DOMO
;]

Hearts heartache

Hearts heartache
listen to this track bitch

today nobody cares but tomarrow they will

ttooken out of context and still make since thanks lu but is true thoeveryone had an excuse/reason not to hang out now when i stay in its a problem. like what the fuck a beautiful ass friday FRIDAY and im alone then it hit me i wasnt alone i had charles hamilton wasalu jaco asher roth kendrick lamar olubowale akintimehin juaquin malphrus briana latrice joe budden joell ortiz dominick wickliffe ryan mountgomey etc its a shame where people from various place help u more then your friends smh but listen ....... naw nvm idc tbh i dont know why i still make these noone reads them if they did i could tell but what ever i guess if i die they can read this in feel bad like y didnt we help n somewhere on the blog its gonna say ITS YOUR FUCKING FAULT DUMBASS MAYBE IF YOUR WOULD HAVE SAID I LOVE YOU BACK WHEN I WAS ALIVE I PROBOLEY WONT BE DIED yup somethiung like that

u just do the opposite

not the fuckin first time i heard this from a girl i was goin with yannie and she said that phrase and that im young check this out when helping someone u doint push ur veiws on someone u u give advice or give a 3rd eye but thjis gotta be short because even more unstableneed mee :(

the Last Memories of Severus Snape

positivty 1-2-2012 _ 2-11-2012

ok ever since my suicide failure on the first day of the year i said i was going to be positive for the rest of the year and if that wasn't a hard few weeks well it soften up the 16th but it was still hard it seem when u walk on the good bright side the more the darkness come but if ur in darkness u get used to imean i really wish i could go back in timein fix my life but shit who dosent maybe im suppose to be this way( u no damn that not true )why the hell not it is (nigga there is people in Africa starvi...) stfu about that because i don't fucking live in Africa there are people here who are ..(in that s ur problem stop comparing ur life with other ppls) i cant they awesome life ias all around (stfu yoo u sound stupid) u too another person to tell me what i say is bull shit (...) see even i think im wrong i hate myself nothing to like im ugly im rude n sadistic and i dint care im anti social n weird not unique weird im not a good musician rapper lyricist flowist or even producer its like i thought that was my talent i guess i don't one im useless im jobless lazy un motivated just an all around bad person maybe trhe worse

couples songs

since v day is right around the coner i decided to do the song that was connected to our relatship illl use nicenames so ppl wont no and the song i mad for u

yannie: black and gold/bite
boo boo kitty fuck :two tatoos/jade
kitten:all my life /y should i
jf:come back to u /sugar to shit

Tommy Wiseau's "The Neighbors" Trailer

two homelessppl

u just have to watch this below

Butt Naked Wonda, Big Brotha Thunda and The Masta Blasta

Derrick's Shouting Homeless Realtor

hiiii

look at the 3 videos and the blog post two of them are songs and one is an edited seneane on a movie i locve ur girl unless u are girl then i love u lol immma goon boss killa lemprcan a samiutal goblin and most ogf all DOMO

wcth this lol

http://youtu.be/LGEL7Hz0vXg

i couldnt sleep last night n idk y

first of tgif im in delaware
n shit
do u no wat i loive
stuff ok
i was forced to make a blog post
idint want to
but she watching me
she might kill me :(
ok i do a few condfessiion
1 i hate to smile it hurts my face
2 i suck my thumb only if im tired or upset (or when im tranquil)
3 so far only 3 white girls got pastr my radar adale lily allen and the girl from harry potter belartrix lastrange
4 i cant fight (yeah right try me)
5 i have songs on my mp3 that i have yet to listen to
6 i love rootbeer under cream soda
7 ill hump the shit out whatever u on o.0
8 ive met the girl of my dreams in my dreams
9 i fight in my sleep sometimes
1o tommy wiseua is a funny guy
11 arthur is a good show
12 i used to masterbate in public (n i think thats enough )
i fight evil and watchn(not look) good during it
oh and
13 i saw stupid hoe by nicki minaj im slowing losing attraction to her in order to fuck her she gotta have her vocal cord cliped no wig she cant look at me or make noice she irk my soul no shoes or headphones
getit


.........
\
no
think about it
im out

Tag team

Tag team

B.I.T(E)

B.I.T(E)

after amonth

ofbeingpostive hetre comes the negative dk know what it is im just negatie im goin to get a surgey formy tyroid i hope i wont have to more shitabout my lifeis .....i have agirfirnd because i was really tired of sacrficing myhappiness for this other bitch (use this word loosely) but6 she makes me happy butthats weird i thoughtshewasntgoing toshooking hense the namewe suppose tomake ateam mixtape becausenot another go by n imnot heardim serious this year ihave about4 5 songs noone have ever heard or even knowaboutbut still immaK.N.O.T (kill niggas on tracks)wellimbout togo walk ihave a feeling noone will appriecate me un till ..... nvm

first of the year

i feel terrible i was alone all day it kept makin me upset sad or whatever i prefer the word melancholy i went for a walk to clear my mind n i was accused of going to commit suicide smh at my mom i told myself that i can be more positive this year but with all the negative shit in the world its kinda hard to do n by the way i got a writers block and its in the way i got shit to say but nuffin comes out right maybe it a sign that i shouldn't be a musician i idk really i still have the feeling that im above average humans like im superman kinda like im special well im bout to go upstairs and platy soul caliber 4 n btw again i beat devil may cry it waas alright i wouldn't play it again n it 2am n im eating dinner chicken sweet potatoes greens cornbread macaroni goddamn i need a life or girlfriend .......shit at this time just a good friend because it seem like im everyone else best friend instead them being mine like just listen to me and stop waiting for your turn to talk or using my words against me and in that case .........

Let me[2]

Let me[2]

last day of the year

fuck 2011 nuffin was special about ok i had a job shit 2 butgot fired from both because of some bs ihad girl broke up been single ever since lcant stand both myparent but who can i have awriters block when i always have something to say i wnt to a psych ward n LOVED it theren found out i have and over active typhoid n for the last half of the year i was alone not in physically but mentally like noone can get me its like im singled ou i feel like im above human like im here to save the world like clark kent butim to sucicidal n slow to live that wrong if i dont do it today i will do it april 20th ,june9th or december25th but im preetty sureim gonna do it today no love nofriend guess im going to play the game and cut myself till ibleed to death i already go two so about 10000 more to go

The eve of new year eve1st copy

The eve of new year eve1st copy

The most disappointed I have ever been

Yo fuck today I may be whining but its better then cutting besides the fact I got a wallet for christmas (thanks mom) I was trying to get my new fone then chill with my.ex but she didnt answer ok cool w/e ill hang with the bros the guy with the fone took too long so I went to cheltenham my friends r nowhere to be.found plus I couldnt get.my fone so im.gonna binge on something n got mute for a while sorry

updates n sht

fuck i cant writetoo much shit on my mind and not tghe right instrumental to behonest imslippin more inmy fantasy world and i belivethatswhatsfuckin me up n shit i seea differentworld like im in a place with my gf with superposwers n shit im tired of pepole trying to sayor dolike they canin these shoesi see all blackusee light blue why.....aorry my mood is fucked upi hatepeople

I hateu

You know that saying everything is not going to go ur way well nuffin goes my way im tired of it all I wamna od but to od on Ime sick sad upset and tired night ill makw alonger one later like anybody reads thia im a.fuckin failure

If I play sonic the hamilton 7 out of 10 I'm upset

and this is y i cantbe happy

people not one person in this fuckin life understands me either get mad confused or just dontcare im letting yall know now this will be the most depressing mixtape eva the depressing december no da depressing december 3d ilike that fuckthe others im going to play devil may cry 4 i love that game andgo to sleep while lising to korn and on thatnote
peace

all this time

yay thiswill be my 151st post!!!! i didnt know gettin a blog will help mystress well it did but i got a mp3 player an 8g but come to find outi lost it it yesterday while it was raining buti did get a new game and controller devil may cry 4 bitch!!!!! but its aloton my mind about alot since i JUST found out aboutcharles hamilton illumatati exsperence like wtf that dude was my idol in music and i find out they push a female persona onhim likeWTF maybe it was his imagination gonewild idkbut thats something to think aboutand on that note

you left me
just to come back
pick me up
just 2 put me down
inorder to put u 1st
maybethefirst will give me clousure
first day of the year
maybe made with cheer
maybe you wouldnt care
but we should be happy u here
peace

I had a dream that zombies took over Costco n i got stuck in the toy store n I had to jump out the window onthat note

idkoncemore

i need an amy rose or at least a peach
amyrose-a female who has acrush on u
peach-a girl you have to fight for

Wow Shit crazy

10 things that turn me on (first sight)

1.ponytails
2.headphones
3.darker complexion
4.real hair
5.thick(sorry skinny girls i still love yall)
6.boobs
7.ass
8.litle ass teeth
9.no makeup (only if needed)
10.flamboyent colors

1.idk whyi even like this feature i guessitsbecause itsasimple hairstyle andif ucanmake that look good u a good lookin girl

2.idk why i like this one eitherbut i do so go geth the, skullcandys lol

3.made a whole song abot this go download the mixtape

4.its nothing better then seeing no weaveand real hair weave is a lil sign of insercurty i like dreads as well :)

5.idk its make me wanna beat them they sojuicy

6. not just big boobs but nice lookin boobs thats proption to ur body like a c cup isurssally not big but on a skinny girl damn!

7. same as 6

8.this createsa cute as smile so when im lookin at ur mouth im not thinkin bout headbut "damn this girl has a cute ass smile "

9.natural beauty is the best but some girls look better with it sorry

10.colors hitthe human eys firstso if u wearing yellow or pink(pink is better) then its automatic turnon (because of this ihate when old ppl wear them itsthe complete opposite)

So im nevous about this job its demandin its akot of bread so oviously im makin a studio but im nayurally nervous ugh life is lookin up so im scared

Iwanna die nuff said.....
(jtripdub)

I feel terrible i think today might be the day i do it and go thoru wif it because im tired of this

Or do u not think so far ahead cause i was thinkin bout forever
(....)

Ppl i will make to mixtapes one called A.B.C :ready to go and one called the females (in) my life(fml) yup
(....)

wat thye blog gonna b

idk i have some shit to say n dont wannna sayit im almost done my mixtapw n because of that i will post my old wack one up here hope my new onew is better sorry its soo short but the thoughts in my mind must trransfer into words first

emotion n feelings are useless
expeally love it will makje u cluless
whodis
y they want kiss
like the 4 lips
we split

im pissed

Lifeislike a baby with a toy then someone takes it thats all it is just having happiness and someoone takes it away and the rest of ur life u might try to get it back but u cant so im done tomarrow is uncertain is soo true right now because i dont think that ill make it there its like sometimes i wanna die then sometimes i dont so i smoke to get cancer but that besides the point im in thge wrong eveeryone is right i need helo i wish i was in the psych ward again or die ir both its the onl yplace i was happy at pissed my own godsamn blog it fuckin up hate the world at delaware takecare of ur self

ghju

idk if my blog works :(

today

Lifeislike a baby with a toy then someone takes it thats all it is just having happiness and someoone takes it away and the rest of ur life u might try to get it back but u cant so im done tomarrow is uncertain is soo true right now because i dont think that ill make it there its like sometimes i wanna die then sometimes i dont so i smoke to get cancer but that besides the point im in thge wrong eveeryone is right i need helo i wish i was in the psych ward again or die ir both its the onlyu place i was happy at

blackberry, R.I.P,hiphop and other shit

its been a lot to happening to me so i havent been on here like soo long but ive been workin on a mixtape as u can tell by the title my blackberry is currently out of use and im kinda bittersweet about because i really want a blackberry but it was too slow for me and the trackball was mad retard so if i get a chance to get a new one i probably will get it also imma release this mixtape around nov 8,9,10 one of them im releaseing 2 at a time also im starting to get into fast rap like tech n9ne , twista, busta,yelawolf, go listeen to worldwide chooppers u will be amased also im findin it hard to be single recently because everybody got a girl execpt for fat black ugly ass blizzi i do that alot make fun of myself y idk i want to get high but i made a promise to someoone i wouldnt and that certain (who will remind nameless) is kinda playing with my emothionm and she dont even kno it i think about someone i cant have its soo sad and i want her soo bad but its whatever bring skill back to hiphop but i still wanna die nothing more nothing les well i take back i just want those pillsand /or go back to the psych ward sad but its true ok im out peace

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how I feel

I really wanna say that I feel good but I really don't I still real sick like I'm sick of life I'm sick of being betrayed hury n disappointed and the crazy part is the people who disappoint me are really close to me but ithink that myfault I put to much trust in ppl I want artificial happiness now my one e dont listen the other think Ime overreacting so I feel alone in this world with now one to understand me I kill myself soo bad right now but I cantt hopefully life will get better but it wont with my fat black ugly ass I hate the fuck outta myself

my bio music wise

Born on the 9th of June 1992 in southwest Philadelphia,PA. J3tt blizzi stared music in 6th grade making silly party songs. By the 8th grade he was freestyleing frequently at recess,but by 10th grade he met up with Neek and Rush and made a group called Dat Easy Money(DEM)squad. After the group shortly disbanded J3tt blzzi and Neek decided to still rap together Until they met cooly Mcloud. Then these three decided to make a group(Fly wit ambition)just like DEM squad it was disbanded shortly.After Neek's cousin asked to make a group the 4 man group became Brothers n Arms. This the last straw for J3tt because like the previous group this group disbanded also. so J3tt decided to go solo. Believing that its 3 main points for rap :concept Lyrics and flow. He said that he raps for the losers,misfit,outcasts,weirdos who don't rap so he raps for them. Be on a look out for him because as he said u gotta be different to make a difference.