positivty 1-2-2012 _ 2-11-2012

ok ever since my suicide failure on the first day of the year i said i was going to be positive for the rest of the year and if that wasn't a hard few weeks well it soften up the 16th but it was still hard it seem when u walk on the good bright side the more the darkness come but if ur in darkness u get used to imean i really wish i could go back in timein fix my life but shit who dosent maybe im suppose to be this way( u no damn that not true )why the hell not it is (nigga there is people in Africa starvi...) stfu about that because i don't fucking live in Africa there are people here who are ..(in that s ur problem stop comparing ur life with other ppls) i cant they awesome life ias all around (stfu yoo u sound stupid) u too another person to tell me what i say is bull shit (...) see even i think im wrong i hate myself nothing to like im ugly im rude n sadistic and i dint care im anti social n weird not unique weird im not a good musician rapper lyricist flowist or even producer its like i thought that was my talent i guess i don't one im useless im jobless lazy un motivated just an all around bad person maybe trhe worse