200th post

but yall dont care for my 200th post ill tell a story idreamed i was in the psycho ward for cutting myself to the point of passing out and i was there in the bed rocking back and forth really losing i did soome teeth chating thing (like perry the platuspus ) and when it comes to visting it was my friends and shit but something shocked me (i wont use names but they will know who they are ) blu and pikachu wasnt there they never came once(neither did bb but she came in the end ) so i gotta belive maybe they dont want to be in my life or i dont need them as much as i thought but i knbow i wanted them because during the dream cried for them but it was more that i cry he more suicidal i eould get and i wouldnt get better idk whatdo this mean ? ibut lately i been more love full ?( meaning neeed affrtion n shit so affectionite?) but i cant control it im gonna lt u in on a sercet i sleep with a pillow and pretend its a girl who sleeps with me and hold me back (commence the laughing ......................................................SILENCE ) wish i didnt have to resort to this but i do leting my imagaination run wild and start to be in love with the lover inside me which means maybe ill llearn to love me and staop depending on people and yes i depend on people alot of people by the way if i couyld read mind to see who like me r dont and who love me ithis would be soo much easier .......... i want to make this long but long with a reason oh yeah im deleteing my face book or just wont get on it because noone listen to what i got to say but if a popular person says it its 23 likes and 11 cimments the only time u would hear my opion about something would be in a song (anit no point of trying to cry and act u like care about what i say so ill speak no louder then a song to show u gotta to listen to me neway) but i guess thats about it good afternoon good night good morning good life peace