architect might shut this down

Ok the glitch with the matrix is the fact it is artificially made to make me happy. A false sense of security that leaves me unharmed by the deadly sun rays that the outsiders(reality) create. Ironically that's the problem people will not understand where my heads at. i walk the streets without a care just worrying about how i feel and people will take it as i forgot them or don't care about them. The phone is the most bi sexual thing in the world it goes both ways,and its been sooo many days where i text or call i get answering machine or a convocation that ends quickly with a "k" or a "lol". so what do you want me to do. do you want me to be happy let me be in the matrix. i'll still communicate with the outsiders with the operator but let me stay in my zone. but since i cant the architect might try to shut down the matrix. Letting my unstable mind with the wildest imagination run rapid in the city of Philly not a good fucking thing. especially since self destruction is not a problem but sometimes a solution for me. AND WHERE THE FUCK IS ALL THESE COUPLES COMING FROM I THOUGHT CUFFING SEASON WAS A FEW MORE MONTHS.It's really depressing me because i want it soo bad but i won't be moved to do something i'll regret. Need me some money,love,shit right now i'll just take a pair of ears to listen to me.  SOMEONE FUCKING LISTEN TO ME !!!