people wont get you anymore ....good :)

The farther i get in to the matrix (my own head )the less pain seem to hurt. (this feels like a deja vu ) For an example like with the dealing with loneliness n stuff like that. Mainly with the females like i was hitting on one girl(well setting up for flirting to take over) n my savager cousin come in n take her( smh family). Neway the only reason why im dwelling on it so much is because she lives in Philly and into the same hip hop as me (rare). So its like i could randomly see her like fate has this one. Even tho i leave almost everything up to fate/god. Its like if i was meant for it it would happen i wont pussy foot around. However the only thing im gunning for is rapping and skating but mostly rapping. Idk when i make a good song i just cant wait to see people faces. Even if its the look of confusion but there would be another song added to the mixtape (without my prior knowledge) and i went off in a positive way. (in my lupe type shit) I've been using metaphors and other shit like that. Similes im saving for freestyles. I've stop talking to my lisa miller slowly but surely and its weird we used to talk every night like a habit. Now we barley talk kinda odd. Letter to mecca is done but im might do it over. Letter to Katie is written and i have to write a letter to Shirley. I don't think Jocelyne or Brianna will get a letter. Idk know why i wouldn't know what to say forreal Jocelyne is mention  in the song cars but Brianna is real  hard to write about but not impossible. I got my 2 lisa millers to write about one is already wrote but i need a song about them together. So basically i need to talk about my envy Adams , my Kim pines, my 2 knives chau, my 2lisa millers,and my Romona. (idk who the fuck she is at all :() Oh well ill find out when the time is right. Basically leave it all to fate (omg sounds like a song title) ok its 4:43 am and i still need to proofread this and ill write a song later on today or after I'm done blogging. Its just I'm a lil tired from working out and skating even tho i couldn't really do that much due to rain. I'm listening to radiohead and next is Nirvana ok
ne way
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