first of the year

i feel terrible i was alone all day it kept makin me upset sad or whatever i prefer the word melancholy i went for a walk to clear my mind n i was accused of going to commit suicide smh at my mom i told myself that i can be more positive this year but with all the negative shit in the world its kinda hard to do n by the way i got a writers block and its in the way i got shit to say but nuffin comes out right maybe it a sign that i shouldn't be a musician i idk really i still have the feeling that im above average humans like im superman kinda like im special well im bout to go upstairs and platy soul caliber 4 n btw again i beat devil may cry it waas alright i wouldn't play it again n it 2am n im eating dinner chicken sweet potatoes greens cornbread macaroni goddamn i need a life or girlfriend .......shit at this time just a good friend because it seem like im everyone else best friend instead them being mine like just listen to me and stop waiting for your turn to talk or using my words against me and in that case .........