july4-5

the parkway thing i have been talking about it all day so i don't wanna talk about. [at least right now] i am in the house alone because my mom  had to go to my cousin house since she is outta town. I should have went to my dad's crib but i didn't. I gotta take out the trash n shit here. Neway i'm seeing a difference with these work outs. My arms are getting more defined n cut. That awesome! The mixtape N.S.M.Y.L.E is almost done and do i like the final product? not so far. It's not the fact i'm not on that many songs [im on like 3 ] but its a tad repetitive.  [no i didn't really have a chance to throw a concept their way]but i dont like it  for a few reasons 1. everything was though email it was like no creative control it was like "the concept is this" and since you couldn't vote you would just write to it. 2.the concepts didn't differ from every other underground group. 3. there is no type of chemistry at all. If i didn't say we was in a group no one would have known. I mean we could have got together and said i'm saying this that and the third. So someone else could do something off of it  but no instead everything was a secret until you hoped into the booth. In groups that is a important component like no.1 but nope we didn't have it. It seem like we just wanted to get the songs done instead of just rapping with your family. Whatever this is the first [and as far as im concerned the last] mixtape. Also i forgot 4. peoples egos. Now i might fuck around say "i put my foot in your ass" but its a joke i didn't for real because i was only on 3 songs. i'm not even gonna front that pissed me off its about a 12 song mixtape and im treated like a fucking feature. If black hippy did that or if slaughterhouse ill ask what was point of him on any songs. If they minus ab soul or Joe budden on all songs except 3 i'll say wtf was the point. [like once again WTF] With the females man, still kinda empty with this shit. So i'm still solo skating [won't get it until i explain it ] but maybe i don't need a girl but a woman. but fuck i didn't even dabble that much with girls let alone women. I'm 20,broke,living with my mom,slightly immature,slightly self indulging and i stay in my head [when i'm not releasing on my internet matrix[this blog] or my music] that's not attractive to many females at all. So because of that its girls for me 18- ? [i think its only 2 17's year old that is an exception] but yea im about to go listen to an song we did today 
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