Let me[2]

Let me[2]

last day of the year

fuck 2011 nuffin was special about ok i had a job shit 2 butgot fired from both because of some bs ihad girl broke up been single ever since lcant stand both myparent but who can i have awriters block when i always have something to say i wnt to a psych ward n LOVED it theren found out i have and over active typhoid n for the last half of the year i was alone not in physically but mentally like noone can get me its like im singled ou i feel like im above human like im here to save the world like clark kent butim to sucicidal n slow to live that wrong if i dont do it today i will do it april 20th ,june9th or december25th but im preetty sureim gonna do it today no love nofriend guess im going to play the game and cut myself till ibleed to death i already go two so about 10000 more to go

The eve of new year eve1st copy

The eve of new year eve1st copy

The most disappointed I have ever been

Yo fuck today I may be whining but its better then cutting besides the fact I got a wallet for christmas (thanks mom) I was trying to get my new fone then chill with my.ex but she didnt answer ok cool w/e ill hang with the bros the guy with the fone took too long so I went to cheltenham my friends r nowhere to be.found plus I couldnt get.my fone so im.gonna binge on something n got mute for a while sorry

updates n sht

fuck i cant writetoo much shit on my mind and not tghe right instrumental to behonest imslippin more inmy fantasy world and i belivethatswhatsfuckin me up n shit i seea differentworld like im in a place with my gf with superposwers n shit im tired of pepole trying to sayor dolike they canin these shoesi see all blackusee light blue why.....aorry my mood is fucked upi hatepeople

I hateu

You know that saying everything is not going to go ur way well nuffin goes my way im tired of it all I wamna od but to od on Ime sick sad upset and tired night ill makw alonger one later like anybody reads thia im a.fuckin failure

If I play sonic the hamilton 7 out of 10 I'm upset

and this is y i cantbe happy

people not one person in this fuckin life understands me either get mad confused or just dontcare im letting yall know now this will be the most depressing mixtape eva the depressing december no da depressing december 3d ilike that fuckthe others im going to play devil may cry 4 i love that game andgo to sleep while lising to korn and on thatnote
peace

all this time

yay thiswill be my 151st post!!!! i didnt know gettin a blog will help mystress well it did but i got a mp3 player an 8g but come to find outi lost it it yesterday while it was raining buti did get a new game and controller devil may cry 4 bitch!!!!! but its aloton my mind about alot since i JUST found out aboutcharles hamilton illumatati exsperence like wtf that dude was my idol in music and i find out they push a female persona onhim likeWTF maybe it was his imagination gonewild idkbut thats something to think aboutand on that note

you left me
just to come back
pick me up
just 2 put me down
inorder to put u 1st
maybethefirst will give me clousure
first day of the year
maybe made with cheer
maybe you wouldnt care
but we should be happy u here
peace

I had a dream that zombies took over Costco n i got stuck in the toy store n I had to jump out the window onthat note

idkoncemore

i need an amy rose or at least a peach
amyrose-a female who has acrush on u
peach-a girl you have to fight for

Wow Shit crazy

10 things that turn me on (first sight)

1.ponytails
2.headphones
3.darker complexion
4.real hair
5.thick(sorry skinny girls i still love yall)
6.boobs
7.ass
8.litle ass teeth
9.no makeup (only if needed)
10.flamboyent colors

1.idk whyi even like this feature i guessitsbecause itsasimple hairstyle andif ucanmake that look good u a good lookin girl

2.idk why i like this one eitherbut i do so go geth the, skullcandys lol

3.made a whole song abot this go download the mixtape

4.its nothing better then seeing no weaveand real hair weave is a lil sign of insercurty i like dreads as well :)

5.idk its make me wanna beat them they sojuicy

6. not just big boobs but nice lookin boobs thats proption to ur body like a c cup isurssally not big but on a skinny girl damn!

7. same as 6

8.this createsa cute as smile so when im lookin at ur mouth im not thinkin bout headbut "damn this girl has a cute ass smile "

9.natural beauty is the best but some girls look better with it sorry

10.colors hitthe human eys firstso if u wearing yellow or pink(pink is better) then its automatic turnon (because of this ihate when old ppl wear them itsthe complete opposite)

So im nevous about this job its demandin its akot of bread so oviously im makin a studio but im nayurally nervous ugh life is lookin up so im scared

Iwanna die nuff said.....
(jtripdub)

I feel terrible i think today might be the day i do it and go thoru wif it because im tired of this

Or do u not think so far ahead cause i was thinkin bout forever
(....)

Ppl i will make to mixtapes one called A.B.C :ready to go and one called the females (in) my life(fml) yup
(....)

wat thye blog gonna b

idk i have some shit to say n dont wannna sayit im almost done my mixtapw n because of that i will post my old wack one up here hope my new onew is better sorry its soo short but the thoughts in my mind must trransfer into words first

emotion n feelings are useless
expeally love it will makje u cluless
whodis
y they want kiss
like the 4 lips
we split

im pissed

Lifeislike a baby with a toy then someone takes it thats all it is just having happiness and someoone takes it away and the rest of ur life u might try to get it back but u cant so im done tomarrow is uncertain is soo true right now because i dont think that ill make it there its like sometimes i wanna die then sometimes i dont so i smoke to get cancer but that besides the point im in thge wrong eveeryone is right i need helo i wish i was in the psych ward again or die ir both its the onl yplace i was happy at pissed my own godsamn blog it fuckin up hate the world at delaware takecare of ur self

ghju

idk if my blog works :(

today

Lifeislike a baby with a toy then someone takes it thats all it is just having happiness and someoone takes it away and the rest of ur life u might try to get it back but u cant so im done tomarrow is uncertain is soo true right now because i dont think that ill make it there its like sometimes i wanna die then sometimes i dont so i smoke to get cancer but that besides the point im in thge wrong eveeryone is right i need helo i wish i was in the psych ward again or die ir both its the onlyu place i was happy at

blackberry, R.I.P,hiphop and other shit

its been a lot to happening to me so i havent been on here like soo long but ive been workin on a mixtape as u can tell by the title my blackberry is currently out of use and im kinda bittersweet about because i really want a blackberry but it was too slow for me and the trackball was mad retard so if i get a chance to get a new one i probably will get it also imma release this mixtape around nov 8,9,10 one of them im releaseing 2 at a time also im starting to get into fast rap like tech n9ne , twista, busta,yelawolf, go listeen to worldwide chooppers u will be amased also im findin it hard to be single recently because everybody got a girl execpt for fat black ugly ass blizzi i do that alot make fun of myself y idk i want to get high but i made a promise to someoone i wouldnt and that certain (who will remind nameless) is kinda playing with my emothionm and she dont even kno it i think about someone i cant have its soo sad and i want her soo bad but its whatever bring skill back to hiphop but i still wanna die nothing more nothing les well i take back i just want those pillsand /or go back to the psych ward sad but its true ok im out peace

Thisisfb backpackkid3@yahoo.com

how I feel

I really wanna say that I feel good but I really don't I still real sick like I'm sick of life I'm sick of being betrayed hury n disappointed and the crazy part is the people who disappoint me are really close to me but ithink that myfault I put to much trust in ppl I want artificial happiness now my one e dont listen the other think Ime overreacting so I feel alone in this world with now one to understand me I kill myself soo bad right now but I cantt hopefully life will get better but it wont with my fat black ugly ass I hate the fuck outta myself

my bio music wise

Born on the 9th of June 1992 in southwest Philadelphia,PA. J3tt blizzi stared music in 6th grade making silly party songs. By the 8th grade he was freestyleing frequently at recess,but by 10th grade he met up with Neek and Rush and made a group called Dat Easy Money(DEM)squad. After the group shortly disbanded J3tt blzzi and Neek decided to still rap together Until they met cooly Mcloud. Then these three decided to make a group(Fly wit ambition)just like DEM squad it was disbanded shortly.After Neek's cousin asked to make a group the 4 man group became Brothers n Arms. This the last straw for J3tt because like the previous group this group disbanded also. so J3tt decided to go solo. Believing that its 3 main points for rap :concept Lyrics and flow. He said that he raps for the losers,misfit,outcasts,weirdos who don't rap so he raps for them. Be on a look out for him because as he said u gotta be different to make a difference.

Playlist

I hate touch fones soon fn bad but watevea im goon to my dads soon it will be typed out
GoodMorning
Not jokes
Fuck danny devitio
Lol
.Blackcream.
Bonkera
LastFight.
WeOn.
Dread cpnnection
Tje way of then crab
Gfl
Music
Bloody knuclkes
LunarMorning
MyProblem
MySoulatiom
SpeakingTruth
Antisocial attitude
91211
LatenightOn tantoween
Gts
Show n prove
J x3

playlist

Ok if this blog look wired im on a touch and I gpt big hands ppl r usally say they r usally scared to say they are in love now whn it comes to love I fall.quicker then a lot of ppl not to say that im in love is konda true im trying not to

So since im not goin to be on for a while i hope this hold ya over

ok in philly where i live its gonna be a hurricane and it was already an earthquake eariler this week this begss the question is it the en dof the world who knows but i do kno that because of it people is gonnna get sacerd and that where fear gets power misinfomation or ignorence sad to say thats mostly blacks people belive what ever someone without doing any reseach but its the blacks that do stupid shit like one bitch usa is a state but its not all people but yea im done with this blog sorry its soo short but its a lot on my mind

wild misinformation

is not just a song title but the thing that ppl tell not lies but wild misinformation.today was a hit and miss but not geettin in to it I'm. Goin the stufio andd I thinki got a tracklist

blizzi 3x

Now. I have found out a lot of people is likein the number 3 because of gucci 3x dickridein hard so I'm take my time and tell y 3 is my favorite number
1.When I was younger I was always the third wise man or the three guy who let jesus in the stable in the christmas
2.it can replace an e which I think is laughing at me
3 My third ex I lost my virginity to
4.I like the fact that its the first odd prime number
5.3x3 equal 9 which is my birth date

fuck outta here faggot

Here we go my friend drovew me to onley terminal and my pass didn't work so I walked to logan and while walkin a guy ask this short but carzy question" hey are u a girl" I'll let that sank in ........ DO YOU THINK IAM like what the fuck I thought about what's femine about j3tt is it my swingin dreads no because lil wayne tpain have them.is it my well lit eyes.no its most likly cause of my man boobs I'm soo fn upset about it becauyse everybody sayin oh u lost wight and I. Belived them and now I just feel fat nasty and unattractive sad because I was just gettin used to my body and got my confindence ugh lige ass once again
3<.

i feel heartbroken am i suppose to

Let me give u the whole story I have a friend( well ithink had idk if we are friends still) and she was my first txtin buddy and for awhike that's all I needed but we grew attraction for each other but she wasn't ready for a bf. So I got a girlfriend and we were still friend when me and gf broke I asked her again once again her answer was no so I gotta another one and we stopped talkin and then started again she told me she lied about her age and o still was talkin to her now she's a shy person who was scared to talk on the fone well at first so was I but if I needed some thing u would think a best friend would help me shy or not no she didn't but its w/e I thought but I feel like someone took apart of me and it hurts o don't love a lot of people but when it comes to females no longer give them my heart. Or a piece of mind just give them dick and time imsorry for my future girlfriends blame the other females in my life
3<.

my reveiw on i am legend

Ok this is.nuffin spatactular I mean it deserve an oscar but no epic movie without a doubt the acting is great even tho its seem like will smith keep picking the same character 7pounds pursuit of happiness but its still a freshness about robert neville the story line wasn't lagging but my eyes wasn't glued to the screen either I also the motif of bob marley his name rob (nickname:bob) daughter named marley j3tt is not amused -_- but the light up the darkness was kinda cleaver one of the main things I hated was the cgi I mean its like someone rapping extremely fast when it works it works (overnight celebrity) but when it does (make a movie) but it too fake for me I don't see y they couldn't use real ppl its already motion captured let it be real ppl I also don't like this logic of the main dark seeker or hemocyte it seem like he was targeting him and let me say this movie could have been better for me ppl didn't tell me everything so I guess the suspense factor didn't catch me but it works as a nice lil summer block buster or for a family night I rate it a four outta 5. 7out of 10. A full price movie. A wale film

yup im still up

I watched the sunrise I wish someone watched it with me :( being alone sucks while watchin I am legend for the first I finnaly felt that feelin the feelin of loniness. Maybe because ever since 7 I was talkin to bit(shoutout) and gummi (shoutout 2) but beside the point I see where will smith is goin thro I am the loniness where imagenation takes over and such well imma rate the movie when I finish it expect another blog soon. 3<

The perfect analogy for my life right now is an airplane that was on autopilot now is being controlled by a pilot that how I feelunready un organize. Etc but as i look more and more into I find that true that I can't look inside and find happiness because that side of me is fight with melacoly side its like what joe budden said sometime I hate my reflection other times im con seeded well it true tho i love myself and hate myself like a girl with a devoiced husband of42 yrs

trop 10 mixtapes or albums

1wale -more about nothing
2lupe - the cool
3lupe - food and liquor
4wale -attention defect
5xv -vizzy zone
6xv -zero heros
7kanye -freshmen dropout
8nerd - fly or die
9nerd - seeing sounds
10 chris brown- chris brown

idont feel so good

A lupe song but also matches my mood I feel useless y? Beacuse I'm unproductive and out of love I mean I love a lot of ppl ok I take that I have love some ppl but I don't feel that bf/gf love that I yearn and need I'm a lover but like a bottle and pacifer I have to ween myself off of it I wanna be coldhearted because no one show me the ammount I need so I'm like a cannibal I can't have the meat o want so I wanna to not eat meat my last hope seems like she don't wanna be with me like I'm a good guy y the fuck not but its cool because when the siummer is over and the weather gets cold so will my heart

tbh

I was asked by my father why don't I have confindence io kno the anwser the years of recule the teasein bullyin and rejections and so on but I still don't kno why I'm notg happy with myself I'm alqways consided avarage or below not ever sexy only to ppl who want me other then that its never andre he is sexy I get oo the black ass nigga with blonde dreads ewww imean am I really that ugly that I can't be fuckable also as a cliffnote I hated prom for the fact of me not havein a date 2 lookin stupid with blonde hair andf a lavender suit 3 I had no date 4 I missee most of it waitin for pictures and most of all nobdoy wanted to dance with me imean I got a few dances but that's it imean I hav low self esttem the only thing I kno I'm good at is rappin I spit a cid my nigga lol no it not funny don't laugh bitch

top 10 favorite food

1 pizza
2 chcoclate
3 chicken wing
4 egg roll
5 cheesesteak
6 fried rice
7 cheese burger
8 grilled cheese
9 pancakes
10 trix yogret

ideal girl

Ard for numbere one she's gotta be smart I love intellgence if we cxan sit down and have a talk on ww 2 that's sexy another thing ivebeen cravin chcoalte lately so she gotta be chcolate she gotta be thick tits and ass and she gotta be at least a 4 in the face she gotta care about me but not to tough but still strict I gotta see her a lot she gotta be affrectionate gotta love rap able enough tro be neive at some point a girl who just as satify to hang out a park then red lobster she gotta be funny silly weird not a boring girl an encentric. Its more but icant think of them lol no not funny don't laugh bitch

the last hope

Is the girl who the rest of my love life will depend on so far all my girlfriends fuckerd up the reason y I'm single but if she fucks up I'm not only goin to be single but just fuck girls with no shame or anything just fuckin bitchesmy exes made me this way blame them

can old love revive itself

I love the way we look at each other even tho we never looked at each other face to face I take place as I take up space in her mind and the same for mine its funny how many people I love without loving myself I could care less if I let my stress bug me out as long as in the house I sit on the couch with the girl ouch that's my insercurty looking at me in a place where looks can kill I get surreal trying to make u feel like I feel about u its real but we would never I'm not afraid to show but I already know my feeling I'm waiting for u tired of being friendly I'm my own enemy just become the sidekick of me

bbs( the love of likein lust)

my mind wraps her with tightness of a boa construtor my venomous thoughts of love pumps the poisin in her vains her anedote of discontent makes her feel better but the monster myself cast another attack and let the heart the black witch doctor take her ways to forget them and so she can live in the cave withme her lust make her like love but once we made love love turns to like to dislike to hate to indifference to noncarein and that and only that can make the love monster drown in sorrows and saddness

if fast love in your eyes

eyes look at me with the lust that i need to touch or eyes look painfully cold eyes that saw years too old funny thing is that im older what i am to u ya phildrewoznoprah so tell me what u goin therugh so the world wont have to be on just u ill share the pain and share the weight now we can do now but we would do better if we wait get it if it looks wrong im sorry i wrote it on my fone

smh

AS some might have known i have wanted to kill myself recently (i still so fall the fuck back ) and i was kept sayin it was the fact i was alone but no its because im shown know affection (idont want hear in calls saying" oh i show u affection" because if u did i wont say it) but i confuse love with affirction i have many that love but didnt show affrection but the only ppl that make me happy always leave like stop that shit (and bri yes im still tryin to get over this penn state shit plz give me time)

donte inferno game reveiw

ok for my 19th birthday i barely got presents (i guess my antisocial i-don't-care-attitude was too confusing to buy me what i want)but when i did get one(from cooly) i got a xbox game called donte inferno now i had my eyes on this game ever since i heard about and ironically i think cooly was there . imean it down to the gameplay to the graphics to the story it was awesome. alil history on dantes inferno it started out as an epic poem in the divine comedy (along with purgatorio and pardiso) writtin by dante alighieri dante inferno however was just about dante rendition of hell he was like a tourist and with virgil asa guide it was like a museum so how are u gonna turn that into a action packed for the short attention span youth? u give a weapon a lot of bad guy to fight(duh) now on with the game it starts of with u as a soldier in a crusade and u come to find your wife(gasp) and ur father(kanye shugs) died and the same guy kills u ur not sent to hell to find the pure soul(wife -Beatrice)and you go through out hell dependin on the circle ur in u will have different monsters to fight like in the lust circle u have to fight im guessin she males but anyway as u go on u will be amused at the graphic i damn sure was and now the pro and con

pros :great gamplay ,graphic sometimes makes it look real,it has alot of hard puzzles

cons :the puzzlers could be sometimes be too hard for no reason,the camera angle changes on it own(idk if this is a con but im use to movin it myself ) itt was too fast i beat the game in a week

that's the verdict i suggest u buy it its a good game

synced up ppl

love life

masks the the life we love

or may not

we both hate life so the love of each other

grows stronger

and stronger

the similarities of our lifestyles makes us think soul mates

so life not so bad

and love is better

but one day the sky bright

but the mood in the room is as dark as the night sky around 12

the tension is high

we make jokes buts its too late

our love we had had faded

and became dim like a light bulb with low electricity

i wish for one more surge or shock

so we can do this life right

we both wanna die lets die in love

and turn the triggers against each other and meet up again

we sync ? right?

R.I.P Ebony& and otherstuff

my laptop battery just died :( its been a year only a year y must the good die ssooo young :(
well my godson (jeremiah) is born well was born the 6th u might be askin y i didnt put it up then because i just found out i would have found out sooner but i dONOT HAVE MY FONE AFTER A FUCKIN MONTH WHERE THE FUCK IS MY FONE LIKE FOH WHATS THE HELL IS WRONG WITH THIS SITUATION any way if u lookin for music i cant help u because there no way to record im soo pissed i wanna finish the team mixtape but this rate we never will ugh neway peace and much love to ya
peace

all i do is

i hate that i cause pain ok
i hate ppl made which make me upset and feel bad about me
ok it was my gf my friend and my best female friend
ok with my gf our personiltys clash and makes an automatic battle field if we both not in a boo lovin mood our ideas and ways that we handle shit makes us get mad or upset at each other
my friend no comment
my best friend she dont talk to me nemore now u will say time tore us apart but its nuffin like that its just like y cant we go back to what we was ?
its a lot of other shit but its not really botherin me
peace and much love to u

another negative post

maybe because i need something to vent to i cant on the mic i dont have one im livin with my mom now because im tired of my fn dad and his house its too small i dont like nuffin except the fact i can rap i made alist about the things i hate about me but its soo much more it never get fuckin easy always harder im not goin to make it to 25 not because of cops gangs or stupid shit its gonna be because im stressed out and had enough money to buy a gun or buy pills or both either way im killin thyself most likely im cuttin myself today or tomorrow life is nuffin but a path to die and btw my birthday is only happy because its closer to death peace

here

well since i was forced to ..i mean i wanted to do this by my own free will :) this is a poem to show my gf my poetry skills

if any words can describe us is imperfect mistake but beautiful

now u might be asking how ill tell u

after i said after my last break up i said fuck love i will be single

my geometry mind said to look at love at another angle

my answer was to be told at midnight

Cinderella got here wish i told her we might fight

because im differcult to play wit

chill wit stay wit

my loyalty makes me never quit

u must got that from me

because u didnt quit on me so i see

even when everyone said "girl u could be free

u dont need him niggas anit shit"

but shes not quick to quit

even if my shit make her flip

she care not because love is a hole and she tripped

in it

im glad to spend it

with her i own no need to rent it

and the heart a house and we went home

everyone else is by myself and with her im not alone

just hold me as i speak

and ill hold u as u critique

affectionate wants

and my affectionate needs

as we go though the months

we are goin to bleed

but if love is the heart we just bleedin love

if i fail this time ill be done with love word to above

10 things i hate about me

Charles hamilton made a mixtape called this so i made a list too

1. I'm unattractive (too me )

2.i have very low self esteem(as shown by the 1st one)

3.I talk to myself alot(because i only understand me)

4.i over think alot(suicdel feelings)

5. I'm a brat (moms fault)

6.I hate to be wrong(dads fault)

7.I have a very bad temper(the 1st 3 fault)

8.I fall in love very fast(hopeless romantic)

9.I sometimes crack under pressure(weakness)

10.I fight everybody i love the most(i cant control that)

reason

ok i havent updated this because i couldnt get internet connection
well shit has poped off in my life i need to talk to someone but everyone else either dont wanna listern or have their own life its not bitchin i could show u bitchin it more of just weakness never said i wasnt weak and now the only thing i was sure of in my life is now being doubted nuffin in this life is remotely right shit it really seem like everybody who had my back seem to be gone smh idgaf
well im gonna leve now i gotta wash my hair
Love Always shine Everytime Remeber 2 Smile

could i

could i want u if i never expericne you ...........love you and never saw you ...........need you and never had you ...........miss you and u never left me idk if it possible but it happends to me to you and it increase what im lackin for me and you but i dont want it because me and you never should have done it to me and you learn to care and trust me? you? no..... us

overthinkin or

after another of feeling unloved unwanted and unsatisfied i walk the streets of Philly to think one of my ideas was to negate everybody from my life because i just feel sometimes im too dependent on others and i don't want to if my friends don't go downtown im not going downtown if my friends not rappin im not rappin its a stupid lil thing that also make me incapable to make my own decisions i go through once and its sad i want it over but im digress this lil experiment can help me experience (cant spell) what people would do without me like would their world crumble or Will it get stronger or would it in general stay the same and i didn't make much of a difference its a easy way to find out but its just a thought tho nuffin is set in stone.

curren$y

How u can start anything about curren$y and not say jets life nigga curren$y is one of those lyricist where you kno u willl have fun listening to his metaphors and consepts are sick but the thing thats the best thing about is his flow the way he says basic shit is just sound hot but hey thats jets for u his only vice is that is hemight get pigetholded to just a pothead rapper but something i forgot his nice talent to tell stories like biggie and lupe the way he does is soo soo J.E.T.S FOOL(it means just enjoin this shit and i didnt get my name from it)

Sucka for love?

maybe i am i hate thee feelin unlove but i hate the feelin of fallin love bring "love anit shit everyone runnin jumping falllin in love but can anybody tell me how to stay there"-isaiah washigton but it soo true everyone want love but when u fall u take risk of gettin hurt i gotta have a steelheart or whatever because my heart been punched slashed ran over dropped forgotten and everything else but i go right THE FUCK BACK TO IT i gotta condition my heart to hate everyone and just give out love so ppl can fall in love with me but i wont fall in love with them so when theey fall ouut i wont be hrt

Im addicted to allfor me by xv download zero heros

Love

i want it and i dont know why but ive felt the pain of the outcome amd istill try do i like being hurt pushed in the dirt blood on the shirt naw naw not that it must be the fact of the feeling it brings happiness genuine happiness brightens everything around me and she whoever she may be i always leave that a mystery because i dont know how could be a miss to me hugs n kisses kisses and hugs turn to rubs on hips and twist in to love sex have some with me intercouse im inside u do u feel me gyration makes the penatration lovely so just sit there waitin for me to returni said my lust rushed to my head i wish i was dead and floati with angel up above ok i dont want i just want love can i have it please...please

WOW Today

To be honest today was kinda ass i mean i record(barely) i went downtown (suppose to meet ppl downthere)and thats it but about the thing that made it bad is the fact i gt ppl mad never on my agenda i never want to but i did but now im startin not to care about anybody like i dont wanna beat myself up over something i cant control so i cant beat myself over the life flaws

Confession:i cant sleep unless i have a conforter of any sort even in warm weather

Iam sam is one of my fav movies

Confession: i found out i have 2 sides of me a side that loves and another that hates me and they fight everyday
smh on that note...peace

Confession: Im still a brat who wont grow up because i feel if i grow up i would hate myself completely

Confession: i hate when things dont go my way it fucks up my whole day (haha it rhymed) but seriously i do like if u gonna do something do it dont lie to me

Lupe Fiasco - I'm Beamin

Lupe Fiasco

FnF up

lupe fiasco is just in my head the greast lyricist he would have been first but he dont make beats hes one of those rappers where his punchline prob wont be caught unless u are really listein or if u go back to listen to it and to be honest i think thats his only vice hes over too many people head which makes him underrated he has lyrics that make words work for him perfectly and his consepts are outta control hes is one of the people that i will work with.

Charles Hamilton's "Loser" Official Video

Charles Hamilton

My mans ch ok i dont kno him but the way he tells hisself in his music makes me feel like i do another thing i admire besides his honest ways is his uniqueness imean look at what hes wearin(peep where i got the headphones from ) hes just dont give a fuck i like that he wear what he want. now when it comes to the music i just think he hands down the hardest workin hip hop artist ever he lyrics be on point and his (self produced) beats are the illest how can u hate him ?his mouth is his only vice(irony :his mouth is want made him hot)(pause) but as i said he dont give a fuck and around people who do that causes a problem but i would love to work with sonic the hamilton (thats always where i get my blog url from jett the shadow) one day hes truely my hip hop idol

Confession:I love words with prefix and suffix in them

MY TOP LIST OF ARTISTS

1.Charles Hamilton 2.Lupe Fiasco 3.Curren$y 4.Dmx 5.J3tt Blizzzi when i have the time i will give an explaination about these 5

I need to get cordinated and check myself im gonna update later when im at a plce for my charger

Something that i discoverd everygirl who learns to like me (platonic or otherwise) will eventually hate me .... Funny thing i show them what they want smh

Today was the worse ok it wasnt that bad but i bored for most of and i saw black ppl and white ppl seprated it fn sad but alot of bs tho but now i will write >3

Confession:i really want a n64 and dre beats and pokemon new game

Confession : i hate to be rushed

Response to this video smh

ok this is stupid watch the video before reading this the whole thing is about some black kids talkin about their prefrence awith skin tone for my opion real quick (the spellin is gonna be trashy in this one)i like all skin tone lightaskin to darkskinbut i do have problems with both

Lightskin: Like the video said they think they are so pretty and half of them time no ur not they think they have the best hair and that they are the shit

Darkskin: sometimes are stuck up if not they look nasty

ok i feel like yes blacks in general arew very loud and bambastic ppl but then u have niggas are the same at the wrong time i was on the train and i saw a group of blacks on the train fuckin with ppl danceing fightin jumoin on rails it was just a disgrace like why would u do that ill put more up but forreal serously we gonna do shit like this now smh

Confession: if we are textin and u just put lol ill wont text back i find mad annoying

Confession:Most of the girls i was with really didnt sexual satify me

dont do anything i wont do

this phrase is often said by parents to their children but my dad never said it seems liike i do ev erything he do sick i kno but hey thats life but anyway lets talk about love now the differnce between loveing someone and being in love is this i love my friends i love my family ilove my bookbag but im in love with one thing anfg one thing only music i mean i was in love before but that expernce just makes my alreadytolence to fall in love stronger now i never said its in impossible but it will take awhiile to fall in love it is to have the sence of urgency of me i love to be need which in turn make me need u and if u care for me ill care for u etc etc i have high standards but everyone gets a shot because i may never know what illl like a person like me love fallin love the expercnce is exciting to i call my self a shy flasher im wont show u waht i got at first but give it time and u will be overweilmed about what i have to offer so i ask are u ready or r u scared because if u r scared then ............

list of facts

this is so ppl can now me more
1. I love the number 3 if anything involve the number 3 i love it(hint hint adidas)
2. I dont like philly ways but i still got rep mycity
3. I would love to have a girl who do music the fact she has dreads will be a plus :)
4. I have a name for my laptop.Her name is ebony(shes black)
5. I belive charles hamiltion ,lupe fiasco basicly music gods (hip hop wise)
6. I really would love to learn how to sample beats
7. I am very self concious about my weight
8. When i write my full name the second "i" in my middle name i capitilize
9. When i was younger i used to shock my self (it felt at the time dont judge me)
10.I love my hair but i sometimes wished i dyed it red
11.I am in love with youtube (geminikid38)
Now after that if anything else u wanna know let me kno in the comments below

today

Big day today i have a job interveiw i didnt want to tell my friends because i didnt want to showoff if it was a time to be J3TT and not andre its now

music update

Treacherous three by fly boy high
yes the song u better listen to every day because us 3 are makin a mixtape even tho my part was small it was better then most others ppl verses and the photo is the cover of my single that will be commin called cloud15

i like this song

this a song that was listening too lately

Fading Away by J3tt Blizzi

yes i see nuffin

march is here still motherfuckin from june nota damn thing better it only got worse
ppl always ask i say fine or whatever but anit shit fine with me my death wish worsen with each passing day the only thing stoppin me is the punishment of hell other then nothing else stop me from odfing or sliting my wrist since im a private person my family dont know shit they might have a slight clue but thats it if there was a way to kill yaself n go to heaven ill go or a way to leave this life n start over im always there to try to be there when ppl go thro shit and where they at if i pushed them away i never knew but if i didnt where are they i was planning on getting my ex pregnant so i can stay in the world happy but no baby bittersweet
but a baby is not the only thing that makes me happy but idont kno what else but wen im alone .........i think
in other news imight turn my fone off and isolate myself from the world im was feelin worthless from june so maybe if i get my life (mind
) right ill prob can turn my life around smmfgdh i need help right now shit a hug or something

Ok alot things in my life i get mad at but i dont show it why because if i always did ill have no friends smh
#theweirdbull

alone

Ok idk how long or how many times imma keep doin this subject but as the ppl next door throws a party im home alone now everyone who nos me no i hate to be alone but i happend to push everyone away y i have a idea its probl because ill wont have to hear my flaws out someone else mouth n also if i push u i wouldnt give a fuck about nobody think about that if u got ne problems tell aplogize but as i said in my song -untittled- u prob did something that made me one friend said i was ppl dependent u kno she right but if i wasnt ime but i wouldnt care

Ok with this blog im doing off my fone its gonna be long way past the mobile limit so it gonna be split up just a warning
#theweirdbull

DyMe-A-DuZiN - MILF (Official Video)

dymez a duzin

if u dont kno him iu will hes one of the youtube stars who is great at waht he do he just relased a video i digg the song but the video kinda threw me off imean is good no doubt but its just a bit not what i expected in a song like milf

a new blog say what

lately shit was a rollorcoaster im currently single yes take it in single its a long story but lets say we be better as friends she might think ill jump right n thee sack with another girlbut im not im gonna stay single till absolutely nessary iknow i cant spell but who blog is it bitch im gonna start putin vids n shit up here n shit stay on the look out hahahaha sack
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Honestly ive been horny for the longest i havent busted a nut n so long its insane i have a craveing for pussy that i would like to satify smgdmfh lol
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i have no intenction of neglating u but i have an im sorry blog for the past few days ive gone thro alot of shit at one time neway download jade please n ty
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new song

jade the monster

Jade 1st copy by Jett Blizzi

Man the only thing in this world that made me better was music
later today i will be putting up a rough draft of my song tell me yall thoughts time to gts
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Hello my blog followers
ok the reason i havent made a blog in a while because some shit was goin on but dont worry i will return soon
with a normal blog
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3%

i feel soo bad today and the past month io dont know how but i am icant try to shake out this funk i dotn like the fact that im by myself always alone by myself not emotionally but physically even at home while im workin and other shit and i feel bad and inferior to others and shit n shit iom makein this hsort for a reason im leaveing peace
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ok i said i would be a slave

ok fb shutting just mean we dont need social networking today imma try my hardest to not be on the internet idont know if it work its a shame where ppl gotta be on a website to be happy what happend to going outside or books or even tv yes tv the thing that ppl spend time hating on i bet its not evil now but its not compare to fb so im gonna stay on the internet for a while so i can see where would i be without it

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d3 (during da dream)

in my dream we sleep together every night and its true
during da dream I'm holding my pillow imagining its u
in my dreams we kiss each other while passionately lovemaking
during da dream with ever kiss i start shaking
with excitement? fear? lust? love?
you know wat all of the above
I'm excited that my dreams are commin true
I'm fearful that i might hurt u
its lust because u so beautiful
its love because without u it feel like a funeral
in my dreams my eyes are only yours
during da dreams u are in my eyesight even if they are closed
in my dreams my hands on feel ur body
during my dreams my hands feel nobody
in my dream my arms wrap around u
during my dreams its not true
do u wanna no y i kept rhyming true with u
because idont know if my dreams will come true
and if u would be in it will u?

A moment downtown in Philadelphia

(2/2) but tomarrow recording idk if i can promise a song but stay looking out ok goin to bed now stay at peace
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(1/2) Ok this is my first blog onthe go so now i got my fone set up i can blog from my fone soooo coool:) but today was pretty lame so i not goin to get n that

This is a test to see if my mobile blog work if it does yay
?no bs?

"i think you like being depressed"

i was told this maybe its right i like being depressed. idk maybe its because i feel confortable there like i know what to expect and if u low u cant get lower or can u but if im happy lil shit can quickly fuck up my mood im soo used to shit going my way and my mom always says the world dont revolve around me but its cool hey its whatever

Rythm of life by Zenny
this is a preveiw of before the dreamcomment and give a listen and support

speed of night (Inspired by manic by kid cudi)

i want the darkness


im used to the lack of light
i dont need it i dont go by sight
my eyes are wrong i cant trust them
if i would tears will touch the brim
of my two sockets
watch it
as they fall from cheek to chin
then once they are gone the anger begin
to take over till the darkness come
and confort the son
who buy the lies of the sun
and say that a sunny day is better the the bitter night
the light decives and scares and the night makes a better fight
so come on come one come all
because i feel invinceable when the night fall
simply put the message that get across to u
is the dark is not always bad it could be good too

first day of the year part 3

im bored as hell i mean ushelly if i was bored ill walk but with my mp3 acting up impossible too. yo this year is slow stupid n i hate very bit of it it pisses me off yea a year that didnt start thatmuch is pissing me off i hate being bored n i also hate being by myself n the funny thing is that everybody is n the house dont mean im not lonely and thats y i try to never be here even in the summer this place is cold smfh im mad and n need of a pet a sidekick or an studio if i had one i wouldnt mind being in thye damn house .i guess ill put up on more poem then ill be done with the triolgy (sigh) i need some vulme
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first day of the year part2

ok i want to start to say i started the new years alone:( well my frikend said i was on the fone with her so i wasnt but i was because nobody was with me . i was actually tring to go to my friend's house n i was waiting for the bus. now even tho i was fie for being alone but the serect is i hate being being alone it causes disconformity. and the saying goes how ever u start out ya new year is how its gonna be for the rest of the year so im gonnna be alone for the year smh i dont know what to do this day and really dont care because i feel mad at alot ofthings but hey nuff i can do
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