unable to reconstruct not stable yet

As I sit in Barnes and Nobel I think about everything this year had to offer which is crazy is the fact it feels like it is anew year like last Monday was January 1st it was the longest fucking week ever since I don't really Sleep at all I try to incorporate more people in my life to make it not seem like the rut it is I don't want to come here every day or just whatever its a few anomaly well I don't think that's the word but its a lot of aquaious that I know I don't know why I have to be the most weird person ever I'm sorry just a thought I am ready to break down but can't bring myself to tears I'm no longer telling people they don't care well Nicole I thank her but the rest not even a how u doing but its cool closed casket cause I might take a shot to the face club 27 newest member right here