incorrect

perfecting perfection perfectly produce pessimism
im living through a prism
see me then you dont multi color leave
like the Autumn leafs
i fall with the breeze
and i move like the bees
and then im calm like the seas
but ultimately i go with the flow
i dont know what for but hey i still go
i do what i like i live carefree
im not trying to stress because its harmful to me
mentally
detrimental to my heath
destructive to my wealth
and the well being of someone else
meanwhile
i do what i want at my own time
because its my mind
and if everyone accepts that ill be fine
now you tell me why am i incoorect tell me right now what was inccorect .....i want to know so i can corrct and put my pessimism back in check

hold up this is my 13th post on the 31st (cool) and its in october so because of that no more october post after this one so if i have something to say it would be added on this one anyway im still in delaware a nice lil mini vacation i can chill with the nagging in philly but i would have to go back home eventually but until im gonna enjoy my time down here but check it tho i made it a lil habit to go to sleep a lil buzz somehow all while i was here the people here are so fucking cool they are just good people and shit and they just wanna live life if it was more people like that in philly wouldnt my circle of friends would be huge but its not most people in philly are only in love with money i think ill go to nj next cheeck that place out  for now the phantom is out back into the ghost zone
peace

my worst enemy

is me tbh but when i try to give an option on why i am its a bad thing i have two type of people in my the complete hero then the complete villain i dont wnt them to merge but noooo everybody wants me to merge them to so i guess its smiley faces every thing else is now staying in my mind so no one will be in  the matrix any the fuck more  you cant handle and (if ) when i kill my self you will find out either was i a mryter or the greatest villain ever  i take that back i don't even know if ill kill myself it would hurt more if y'all kill me the final solution  is now expanded its not just suicide anymore nope just smiley faces and happiness just smiles and happiness..........smiles

back in the day shit

im in delaware

and a storm is comming i bet not one friend will find out if im ok  oh and btw unless necessary no more fb post just on here n btw if the final soultion goes on without a hitch i dont want any one to hurt themself in any way shape or form that would be my dying wish respect it

operation shadows sucide

so i know i havent said it but i have been trying to end it all for a while im unhapy with the life and under great amount pressure so with this party i plan to get alchol posining n od or what ever but it failed because im alive to tell the tale but this is not the only time im a true this this month or year i just want to be happy even if im dead i feel like a bad person and if noone loved me that would make soo much sence shit i dont even like me let alone love me im make this short im dying slowly nside and my phone died like it fell in the toliet so i gotta get a new phone again

116-

so check it right im with amy like right now n not to long before this nigga sonic called and they talked to each other on some nice stuff so its like i was in the middle im not the 3rd wheel im more of the 2nd bike and you have to respect that he got her im more of the thrill ride that be on the side but its a tad different amy dont want me neither but i dnt want her with him hes not right hes boring old history but us we have cheminstry (ohh imight make a song about this )  shadow the hedgehog wont take this laying down he would rather figure out  aplan to make them come together(worse nightmare on the best night ) or make shadamy (perfered plan but prob wont happen ) or just continue to lead this life of a the best sideline ever but its cool either way nuff said its up to amy                   -end transmisson-                                                                                                                                                                                  CHAOS CONTROL

with my type of mind

like people better tread softly because if i dont care about if i live or die why wouldi care about you dying thats more of towards the people i consider my enemies  i said either i save alot of souls or take alot with me when i leave its alot to account to this so caled "random" age but i wont name one 1. cause im on the bus 2. i dont feel like gettin more angry ........maybe i should be homelss because there is nowhwere i call home just places i lay my head

5: 23 (wait i noticed the time is wrong on my blog. why??)

ember ,romona, amy = the only3 that seem to matter ill explain it because iwant to put it on the blog the pics i downloaded they fit so well. but one person i believe will always be a lisa miller (a friend  who just tease) like whats the point and other one i called lisa miller have changedon me drasticly like we dont even talk any more this was my best friend best fucking friend (maybe my crush on her fucked it ) and i feel sometime of way about it because like wtf changed ugh but my emotions have been running wild lately mainly love n hate people dont know whats its like to be at the extreams of both sides like i do i want love and i would do everything for it even sacrfice things and i never get it as soon as i say im gonna reain single i get nothing but attention yall cant do that to me im emotionally unstable and mentally dependent on my emotions (i want food) it will have me confused and easily put me on the dark side (starting to feel tired) oh yea shadow got fixed (yay!) i missed him so much i was riding it gave me freedom i cant wait to ride again (hunger and tired is a bad mix ) ive been listening to mickey factz alot that guy is sick i swear he is quickly rising up in the ranks of artists who influence me (bacon eggs anc cheese with toast and hot coco and sleeping with a big conforter and sweatpants) listening to l.e.s by childish gambino and im thinkin about awkward black girl and her relationship with white jay n now i want something like that(wait is love all you think about like focus on music) iben trying to make new songs and the only songs that comes out are songs about females(thanks alot mickey fothermuckin factz -_-)i mean i can do other kind thats something i perfer for now at least i really dont mind because i know in about a month or two its not gonna be like this (stop lying you gonna belike this all winter ugh this is gonna be a long season) wait its 6 well 5:52 already jeez i guess im going (yea right you gonna go down stairs and get something to eat like now because we are hungry) to sleep .........peace (finally )

fuck it all

ok i said my family only would care if my soul hover and to all my lovers they can find another and my sister got another brother and my dad dont even want contact with my mother......my friends could stop it but they would finnaly profit because what typeof rap group could make it with a fat black kid who tryn be gothic and with the skate tricksi wasnt sick so with me it wasnt even a topic so they drop it  andmy  females friends im no where close to a goood bestie because i s0pend most of the time think yall was sexy  i anit shit i think i got them every human i come in contact with  im a human mutherfujckin cancer who might have cancer and it might be a sucide bioweaponary suicide  the best kind  ......the best fuckin kind

a poem i made

KNOW THIS
i havent felt like this in a while
look at me
try to feel what i feel
i feel nothing
am i suppose to
its like i depleted everything
nothing is left but fumes
and ashes
the ashes come from the tobacco
i use to pacify me from the stressful
things i put up with
my bags are packed I'm ready to go
i tell you to reflect me
because i feel you beat me to it
did my kisses mean anything
did my words mean anything
did my actions mean anything
did my attempts mean anything
but if they did we wouldn't be apart
separated
split up
dispersed
unrequited love is a bitch
so ill match you and you match me
and feel neutral
but only you can make me stay
let the pain affect you and ill drop my bags
but until then
BYE

air + water= windy seas..

i swear it would make sence but let me say the water is venus if anyone wanted to know but check itout so much on my mind i wanna write but i cant i have a test i should be studing for i have not picked up that book once well i did butit  was for a lil while  yo back to the subject windy seas meaning something violent angry n dangerous but it could mean peaceful and perfect weather i never said how  much wind i just said wind so it could be something tropical but its whatever people really dont want it to be like that mybe they are right maybe it shouldnt but then again ........ugh why the world gotta zodiact like that (brandun deshay thank u) dont touch me if you dont need me dont want me ifyou anit gonna keep me dont say love if you anit gonna try it and dont break it if you anit gonna buy it im done......peace

memorabilia

a neckless ,keychain,a hug ,akiss ,a shirt ,  hoody anything ..............................you ever feel like you cant find something or someone that brings peace in your life well you are not alone. now lets get this str8 this is not me complaining but ive been on a quest for peace(superman?) /art for a while and im about to go around phily and take pictures of humn interaction (real human interaction they wont know that im there or taking a picture of them) because ive seen some beautiful stuff. the mom at the busstop with her child as the child talks her head off about school and shes sitting there with a smile or the father who is teaching his child how to ride a bike or two people walking hand and hand down the street or just a person in front of something can be art that what i like about it art is not limited to the rich we can (in most times do)make it everyday now on a personal note i hope it doesnt rain today (its 430 wens) becuse i have plans i wish would be fufilled (sigh) well i would keep bloggin but i have to finish watching the basquiat movie (the documentary) and maybe find something to eat..........well peace                                               wait hol up i didnt use the title i never wanna b forgoten by anybody who met me or came in contact with me thats a fear of mine now i can say peace after an elipse......peace

heart start beatin like a drum when i see ya

i want to say im n love but im not but i do feel love forreal as i layin my bed listing to briana latrise i think about a cold night and people hanging out or making out or both i love the cold as a couple and if i get a night like that (or should i say a night like that again ) it would be a perfect type thing idk what it would be i just know i would love it idk why im way more affectionate in the cold but i am i wanna be held as i hold i wana kiss when im being kissed its just something about the fact that passion can literally heat us up hold it right there my eyes are getting heavy my fall wishlist a romantic type night or whole day just the cold and a lover of my choice (insider) peace