recluse watching nutty professor 2

This night mark   one if the biggest nights of the year today is the day where I realized why I wanted to keep everything to myself in the first place you talk to people and they act stupid (the fuck wrong with romoana snapping at us because we was venting she know we hate it when we get told what to do )Especially when I already know but (what about that gf of ours) leaving us alone after uncle benji passed (first role model aka mj to us ) I know (I still think that you should move back to the way you were before ) I cant n u know it became I am getting better (we can do both meditate to be more inside n only outgoing when necessary ) maybe its the only option (that means no wife ) I know but we talked about love alot (yea but this is not what was planned she cant call or text its soo much drama with her) it is alot though but (is she worth ) ...................ill think about it

recluse smoking during a snow storm

Now anyone who knows me knows when I meet a person I get involved with I turn to an open book I tell everything because I think thats how it have to be and I demand the same respect thats why im upset if you keep something from me especially if its small I will feel offended by that and shut down im a human. Vault I hold many secrets some mines some others and I feel if I let you know mine you special I shouldn't have to use my blog for that but yet I do im going revert back to my previous ways becoming that loner once again only one knows things is me and me alone its fuxked when you cant go to your own lover family or friends you gotta rely on a website smh but this is the only way I could cope so let me cope or pass the rope so I can choke

all I got is myself

Ok to be homes I didnt think I needed my blog nemore since I had opened up about myself to people however tonight has changed a lot for me I cant do that nemore my words are hurtful (in my briana latrice voice) to so people so instead I decided to put them in a blog I was kinda happy when I had my blog it didn't seem like I was due to the post but I felt like someone without an opinion was listening which is something I need no opinion just listen shut up and listen but people wont do that so its back to the blog I be on here when I need to drain my thoughta