self loathing at its finest people

i don't even know why im writing this (because remember i have to be smiley faces all the time) but i kinda have to i am a 20 year old who is a. jobless b.houseless c.broke d.carless e.not in school now every last one of these things can be fixed not that hard to do but yet they not idk i don't have that ambition that i use to do them. maybe because im not forced or i want to prove people wrong but i cant get by on my dashing good looks for long i have to rise up and take that test for ccp so i can get into school the job thing can come after but here's another thing that fucks me up a social life. ok ever since i was younger i didn't really have a social life per say but once i got older and more social able i attained one and i guess you can say its a sacrifice but im not ready to make that sacrifice i want to have fun so maybe ill focus on either a job or school because a job can help my social instantly with the money and the what not gives me more things to do where school would help me in the long run with the degree and such so its just a matter of what i want  now or later i have to give myself a deadline with out stressing myself out how about before thanksgiving i have to make a choice or what i could do is leave it to fate/god like ok im gonna focus on getting a job if i get one before thanksgiving i have my choice if i don't then in the spring ill be going to ccp i like that plan  that way ill be taking a