ive lost rammy

its crazy its the 4th time i made someone cry with my actions of being myself or at least let them in to my mind  n i only have 5 girlfriends well had so its safe to say its me i think i need to be away from people for awhile people just dont get me im gonna do operation destroy and rebuild and if you wanna know what it is just hope the library gives me extra time i wanna leave now but i dont have  Internet anywhere else so fuckit my heart hurts figuratively and literally i can only help it one way confession: you know how someone with tattoos say its addictive well my cuts are like that its been times where my arms have been just been begging me to get a knife and just cut them but i cant the few things that makes me happy cant help since now pressure of perfection have been thrown into the mix my phone is broke im broke my mp3 bout to die and basically i cant put no more music on it im alone im questioning existence like do i need to be (kinda i think you do but i can tell you why) well, inner voice inside of me that i put in parenthesis  how can i find out (idk man idk im just as lost as you) i wanna go to nj for some reason i wanna go i wanna leave idont know where just somewhere like anywhere but here (but we cant leave we have "thing we have to do") inner voice you know as well as i nothing is staring to matter (right ) ok then so why should i care about the "things we have to do" (man you got off topic like a fothermucker might as well just wrap it up) ok


IM GONE


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