think like a man

tell me why this is a terrible concept ok its because u cant that do that every man is different just like how every man is different ii just saw two movies [this and ted ] where the girl wanted  to change the man its the best friend who's the enemy or its just an outside force that fucks with it simply put you cant rush love you cant out trick it its a wave that cant really be surfed on or controlled neither sex is Neptune [the god of water]   dont lie lying make things worse on both parts being a player in a man is overrated n cheating in women is also overrated visea versea i have more things to say but mind is semi preoccupied shall returned .......

idk whAT to do

my life has been so confusing mainly because i need to release some thoughts. on a lot. more then this blog can contain or handle i wanna some real ears to listen to me. i got my best friend back well she never left be we talk now..again kind WEIRD SINCE I JUST MADE A SONG About her. its crazy when i make a song about someone they wanna talk to me again. I'm still releasing it but i hope i don't lose my friend again .its like 6 n i wanna know why I'm up oh yea i took a nap out of boredom i have been interested in Andy Warhol lately [thanks mause] so i was looking him up earlier. he was a very eccentric person I'm hungry but i gotta workout i cant wait to go to Florida because i wanna see some new location some new people might see some pyt for some sugarwall action random i know and yes I'm no longer putting periods just because i choose not to and i am lazy to put them where they belong when i proofread this lately i have been writing bout women i thinking next might be a sex song i haven't done that in a while and i wanna see if i have evolved enough for it to matter like would i be talking about the same thing idk my typing skills are increasing [typing skills +250 pts] I'm proud and pissed because that means i type extremely    too much well time to eat after correcting my few spelling errors i wanna kiss someone or hug or put someone on my lap n look them passionately in the eye and tell them how i feel

sensitivity and vulnerability

all im gonna say is some thing maybe should stay in the matrix but its hard when you become vulnerable to someone. maybe i should just kick everyone out the matrix and start anew. it sounds like a good idea. it hurts easier when people are in it anyway. at least the core is not affect completely key word COMPLETELY  feeling upset to upset to put the signature. its been like this for a while . furthermore i have an interview(s) u have to go on tomorrow so no staying up for me :(

architect might shut this down

Ok the glitch with the matrix is the fact it is artificially made to make me happy. A false sense of security that leaves me unharmed by the deadly sun rays that the outsiders(reality) create. Ironically that's the problem people will not understand where my heads at. i walk the streets without a care just worrying about how i feel and people will take it as i forgot them or don't care about them. The phone is the most bi sexual thing in the world it goes both ways,and its been sooo many days where i text or call i get answering machine or a convocation that ends quickly with a "k" or a "lol". so what do you want me to do. do you want me to be happy let me be in the matrix. i'll still communicate with the outsiders with the operator but let me stay in my zone. but since i cant the architect might try to shut down the matrix. Letting my unstable mind with the wildest imagination run rapid in the city of Philly not a good fucking thing. especially since self destruction is not a problem but sometimes a solution for me. AND WHERE THE FUCK IS ALL THESE COUPLES COMING FROM I THOUGHT CUFFING SEASON WAS A FEW MORE MONTHS.It's really depressing me because i want it soo bad but i won't be moved to do something i'll regret. Need me some money,love,shit right now i'll just take a pair of ears to listen to me.  SOMEONE FUCKING LISTEN TO ME !!!