nothi g

The times i feel good i feel i am god n when i feel bad i feel like i don't exist
I hate the fact i have one or the other i need a connection with a real so i wont  have to feel bad
I wanted to cut myself so i can feel alive or real but i didnt
(Luckily)
But i was talking to amy about things and realized that I know why both amy and xavin have stayed around so long its a friendship thing
(Explain)
Amy is more psychological aware xavin is more socially aware
(And)
With that being said they are superior to the average so making me push to be better hense the relationship
(Amy use u as a therapist )
And im fine with that  its still a mutual things
Xavin is alil ......
(Drugs)
No
(Alcohol)
No
(Why not)
No need
(Yes u do )
No i need a connection
(Drugs and alcohol)
Yes maybe i think i should so i can be here Nd not here at the same time