tamale

Im starting to lose it human attachment starting to feel stupid  if i had a dollar every time i felt the need to the die i wouldn't need a credit card ill be rolling in dough its easy as hell to be neutral fighting smiles n letting the most negative thing u can think of its easy most humans don't deserve my full attention anyway my thoughts opinions and feelings truly would scare them away the won't know how to take so i chameleon rize n change to adapt i know don  wont talk about certain things so i wont same goes for everyone slowly im coutting myself off n loving it

rip robin williams

Today i heard the news on the death of robin williams now as an actor he was ok i liked jumunji mrs doubtfire and hook as a comedian i think he was par nothing to funny but nothing to boring (mitch is hysterical by the way) but
Now every one is a Robin Williams fan 
Why cant people say a celebrity's death is sad without kissing ass 
Why must every one  who die suddenly be an "inspiration"
Why cant someone say
"Rip robin williams you had a few good movies its sad u committed suicide prayers to the family"
And keep it pushing 
But Noo everyone is soo stunned with his death that u actually forget what hes famous for
Hes a comedian his job is to make you laugh because laughing makes u feel better 
So instead of crying about watch one of his movies and laugh 
To be honest i wonder how people will react when bill passes i also want to say bill cosby is a great man now so when he does i wont be bandwagon ing
I wonder if hes lonely ........

nothi g

The times i feel good i feel i am god n when i feel bad i feel like i don't exist
I hate the fact i have one or the other i need a connection with a real so i wont  have to feel bad
I wanted to cut myself so i can feel alive or real but i didnt
(Luckily)
But i was talking to amy about things and realized that I know why both amy and xavin have stayed around so long its a friendship thing
(Explain)
Amy is more psychological aware xavin is more socially aware
(And)
With that being said they are superior to the average so making me push to be better hense the relationship
(Amy use u as a therapist )
And im fine with that  its still a mutual things
Xavin is alil ......
(Drugs)
No
(Alcohol)
No
(Why not)
No need
(Yes u do )
No i need a connection
(Drugs and alcohol)
Yes maybe i think i should so i can be here Nd not here at the same time

im mad tired

I cant see out the window that's in my face
(that was a metaphor)
im just listening to ofwgkta in the library  and my head is just overflowing I cant focus still passed a final
(the intelligence is serious)
just needed to be increased
(why tho)
I want to talk cryptic
(that's easy with our brain we can make a code only we will get )
shit we can use the blog
(yea)
whats wrong
(its all for attention)
or a message
(I know that talk n I know that feeling u better get help or don't but if u don't don't hold back just do it )
ok