5 since 21

i got wasted on my bday n been buzzed or fucked up ever since n idc i dont see ne reason to be sober i have looked back at my love life and let me say no im not happy  felisha amy ember romona peach  and dark phoenix(finnally the whole league ) ive hurted them and been hurt by them shit ive been hurt the un official exes (sedearny) btw its 3 ppl also with that in mind i no longer want feelings every time every FUCKING TIME I FALL I LOVE I END UP ALONE (sorry folks hes kinda mad right now ) LIKE IM NOT PERFECT BUT GOD DAMN IM GOOD ENOUGH SHIT WITH ALL THE BULL SHIT I PUT UP WITH THESE FEMALE AND THEIR PERIODS AND MOOD SWINGS (look whos talking ) AND ALL THEIR FEMALES PROBLEMS AND THEN THEIR PERSONAL PROBLEM JUST BULL SHIT  SO I WOULD SAY IM DONE WITH LOVE BUT (probably cant commit to it) IMMA GEMINI AND A LOVING  PERSON SO I KNOW I CANT (told you) BUT WHATEVER HAPPENS HAPPENS ................BLACK AND MILD AND 4 LOKOS (lol) IM DEAD ASS JUST WAIT TO DIE NO LONGER A REASON TO GO BUT I WONT BE DIRECTLY INVOLVED IN MY OWN DEATH (so you gonna live life to the fullest aka reckless until death .........)YEAH( fuck yes lets get turned up tonight ) OF COURSE LIVE LONG AND PROSPER  TO ALLWHOS NOT ME  "everybody somebodys everything nobody's nothing " yea right