life has its moments ....sometimes

then again it  doesnt Gothic /emo carving is all that i have to look forward too i tapped out on the uneasiness of life to become a Gothic poet 'erdna ' idk maybe the influence ch has on me have influence me greatly im alone only with the main voice in my head that i talk to we walk philly n really dont care about anything that happens i need new music on my phone hopefully i can get my phone fixed most likely i wont i want to find a hideout where i can be free from the world n not deal with the strees or bs that i do put up with fuck the fbi they might be reading this i want them to come kill me make me a motherfuckiung target tired of this shit no longer mad or anger just waiting on death to take me out on a date then rape me take me passionately in her arms n tell me it will be ok as she rides me furiously n when we done we will get married n ill truly be happy so go ahead n lust for life ill be in love with DEATH







waiting for u to take my breath away baby..............

im gone

i have a plan of leaving im only telling my blog because this would be the last place they look even tho its on my facebook page meetme twitter instagram and pof profile if im not mistaken but nope even with the free promotion and word of mouth through me its not a secret at all and i don't treat it like such but no one listen fuck em all if u just now reading this blog FUCK YOU seriously i ve told everyone close or far from about this damn page so maybe i could receive some help but no help was ever given so im leave my house on Sunday and refuse to come back where would i go idk nor do i care Sunday im suppose to go to a game night so hopefully ill drink to much because alcohol will be provide and ill have poisoning but yall mother fuckers think im playing im not making it to next year im surprise im still here breaking the pact i made with my self last year that i would end it Christmas new years or my birthday the 3 events passed and im still the fuck here fuck job corps i dead ass didnt want to go its one of those you gotta do what u gotta do type things fuck electricity idgaf about how that works but in this corrupt ass world you need the poison that people fight die and bleed for ;money i just wish the world works based on talent or skill not fucking degrees and other bull shit man made accolades so retards can pat their self on the back and say i did something great no the fuck you didn't i don't deserve my diploma i didnt deserve it i didn't do my best in hs you know why because im lazy as fuck but have skill intelligence and potential to be the best but noo its handled to the people who can sit in class copy notes pass test n they are proclaimed smarter because they did something thats routine how is that far its not but thats not why im leaving i just had a moment i had to get out im leaveing because i dont fucking like this fucking world the fucking things in this fucking world and the fucking people in this fucking world are the fucking sheep that leads to slaughter ill admit some are not but most the fuck are its like i dont even wanna die nemore my desire for death is still apparent but i wanna die and my soul goes in a capsule to be never released again no thoughts no feeling just nothing thats exactly what i want to happen but no i get judged on what i do and depending on how strict god is ill be in hell or heaven for eternity thats a long ass fucking time i feel like ill probably go to hell tho i have alot of malicious thoughts and alot of malice in my heart its not my fault tho i was brought up with it and to those who say i use my up bringing as a safety net FUCK YOU again because its not a person upbringing determines alot of decision options choices etc in the persons life my eyes are done looking my ears are done listening the only reason why i was living was because love but even that hurts to the point where you want to kill your self and one person should not have that much power of another especially if it came from such a necessary because we need love to survive it was a study on as humans we need love the only emotion we NEED and beautiful emotion but as i run my hands through my locs n just wonder how many people are gonna find this whos gonna find what would they think and i say to them if they wanted to know my read the rest of the fucking blog .....fucking bastards



peace

j3tt's blizzi love life

(but he doesnt love life ) haha ready (yea) ok first was tia(do you wanna count that ) yea (but she cheated on you for your best friend ) so did angel (forgot all body our lil freaky ass white chick) next it was Brianna (haha the names repeated for you ) i know that's crazy (she was freaky back then tho i wonder i how she is now )probably a mom (yea but a milf tho ) any way next it was Jocelyne (Felisha: crazy ass bitch )but she did love us (yea but she was bad for us ) like most of the others (almost forgot she took that v card ) i know I'm mad because of it after that was Katie ( peach :she wanted to be rescued hard ass shit but she also loved us ) as i said for here on they all loved us but was just wrong for us next was Shirley (ember : that girl) i know (she fucking dropped us hard as shit ill say she caused the most pain out of the league and for that matter all of the girls un official included )yea she was .... (skip it next ) Brianna (Romona the smart beautiful she has a friend vibe to her tho) oh in the best way possible (of course but mecca(Amy fn rose) yup (another girl who has a friend vibe we can stand to be around her for more than a few hours ) which is hard for us (true ) lastly Kendall(the dark Phoenix  her name fits her perfectly she happy then its like an anger i wish not to go through ever the fuck again) and we wouldn't have to  (would u do any of them again ) you mean we don't forget you played a part to my mans (you was about to say nigga n idk if they fix their flaws ) what was Amy and Romona flaws (you know Romona acted like a mom ) i did hate that (and Amy one don't want us )true (and she never have time ) yea its sad if you could all of them together could be the best (or the worst thing ever) and now we would try to do the iteralrun time of them all go

Felisha :dec 2008to may 2009
peach: nov09 to may 10
ember:june 10 to jan 11
Romona:mar11 to aug 11
Amy: jan12 to jun 12
Kendall: apr13 to may 13

again again

i know somebody gonna hear me my mp3 player is broken so i have to use my phone (dont get in to it they probably wont get it )but its to me  but ....(shhhh just dont go in to ) what about toda...(dont) so its nothing

i think music is now overrated

ash said he would stop if it feels like a job and it does im too hard nothing is complex enough but when it is i have to dumb it down i know i have to find a middle ground and it can be acchived but im tired of this change shit because nooone feels me but whatever im talking to a girl she a go getter like really but idont think we gonna mesh im too much of a bum idk whatever idc im in idle while not nemore but im not active i got high bymyself before and felt so good (yea we was chilling hard as shit making jokes and shit we was tripping )then we do we feel down (maybe because we still living) meaning ? ( remeber when we said we would commit suicide on the earthstrong)yea (well we didnt we still living we was only living for that day and since the world is still spinning we feel incomplete and  unfiinished your want to fo home and get the 99 bananas? yes (trust they gonna read all this when we gone nnoone cares now for a reason )

5 since 21

i got wasted on my bday n been buzzed or fucked up ever since n idc i dont see ne reason to be sober i have looked back at my love life and let me say no im not happy  felisha amy ember romona peach  and dark phoenix(finnally the whole league ) ive hurted them and been hurt by them shit ive been hurt the un official exes (sedearny) btw its 3 ppl also with that in mind i no longer want feelings every time every FUCKING TIME I FALL I LOVE I END UP ALONE (sorry folks hes kinda mad right now ) LIKE IM NOT PERFECT BUT GOD DAMN IM GOOD ENOUGH SHIT WITH ALL THE BULL SHIT I PUT UP WITH THESE FEMALE AND THEIR PERIODS AND MOOD SWINGS (look whos talking ) AND ALL THEIR FEMALES PROBLEMS AND THEN THEIR PERSONAL PROBLEM JUST BULL SHIT  SO I WOULD SAY IM DONE WITH LOVE BUT (probably cant commit to it) IMMA GEMINI AND A LOVING  PERSON SO I KNOW I CANT (told you) BUT WHATEVER HAPPENS HAPPENS ................BLACK AND MILD AND 4 LOKOS (lol) IM DEAD ASS JUST WAIT TO DIE NO LONGER A REASON TO GO BUT I WONT BE DIRECTLY INVOLVED IN MY OWN DEATH (so you gonna live life to the fullest aka reckless until death .........)YEAH( fuck yes lets get turned up tonight ) OF COURSE LIVE LONG AND PROSPER  TO ALLWHOS NOT ME  "everybody somebodys everything nobody's nothing " yea right

5 more till 21

rihanna is my wifey again :) she agree and now it s me and robyn my princess from Barbados wait...... nvm its over again damn ri ri stop playing with my emotions i want you but anyway  i have a 3rd unoffical  (SE)(DEAR) (NY) SEDEARNY omg i have insiders with myself but i will tell some people but if u no me u can already get it but it could be me just thinking to far out the box to be comprehended by most people sad to say this but it has to be said but anyway im going home on Wednesday kinda excited imma see my sister off on prom n shit you cant nice to some people (sorry that was random thought from me) ne way imma end it here my vibes been killed