blood on the ground

the cold hand touch my hot face

incubus echos in the background

us in the foreground

nufin can break this moment '

except me and you

but more of u and i react to ur plan

but my plan is a lil different

instand of cutting u and leave u to die

im cuting myself giving up

btw i did try

randumb poem it was on my mind

im start listiing to rock[music] more and write a song aday about my emotions because i hate the fact that swace is catchin up to me [its the flow then the lyrics ] but i surpassed him before and ill do it again n btw ...... i forgot o.o thats not good

peace

10 reason y im bad at relationships

1 get bored fast
2 fall in love too fast

3 i am emotion unstable

4 do my best not to tell how im feeling[execpt to my blog]
5 noone take the time to understand ;u could connect it to 4

6 i compare our relationships to others [could be a postive]

7 sometimes selfish

8 broke

9 love too hard [if that make a sence]

10 im me wont change unless needed n that fact that im all these negative traits plus more rolled in one

im tired really because o skating this life n other type of bullshit its like i odnt even go to the liberary nemore maybe because i cant share my intelent [if thats spellled wrong ill look so stupid] same goes for my rhymes i belive in mind that noone whas to hear them but idc about that well wait i haveto because as ofnow i have no work ethic the last time i looked for a job was feb the last time i wrote a rhyme was last weekbut im done complain i gotta eat some noodles nw should make some tea as well oh and im suppose to see my friend to marrow but idk

i scream what i want and i scream

love trust passion

sex with emotion connection

love with a lust for passion

too much to askfor in this world or too much top ask for one girl [tee hee]

butto be honest that what i need

to love me

need me

want me

please me

now a girl didnt do tis that y we broke up ill explain in greater detail next time

peace n im notsingle btw

and so it begins it

but idkwhre to start....let me take it back i want to stop talking to everybody (everybody?) EVERYBODY dont ask y look down at my previous "depressing" post but have an date either april 1st or april 20th y because i want to find out shit bout kme and other ppl n to chu u no i need u its just its soo much u cant handle like 247 (well kinda) n its not "possible" but w\e im tired both ways pysically mentally n btw im hearing voic3s they different pitches then mine peace

trayvon

ok im pretty sure everyone knows about him and im more mad at the race of the child then the crime u wanna know why because thats the focus not the fact that a grown ass man killed a child no the factt that a WHITE man killed a BLACK child and u have to ask ur self if u see an guy on the corer what u thing" oh u yea he looks like a college gragrate"so even in our race we have racism u dontr know how many times i ve herad "nigga why u skateing u anit white or yu listening to rock u and white t" this limit us in a box and by us i mean the human race but as sooon as a eventthat invole a race hurting black its a probelm its a n uproar but what about lil tyreek that got shot byu jamalor nicki minaj big sean makinsexual music that the world listen to and have sex and when i mean world so that y by 18 most womren have already had a child or children(statics) n whos race the black race so hush that black shit up becaue u cant be agaisnt zimmerman but support ymcm its he same team to take out balck ppl

that 200 post lookkinda good

its been 2 yrs since i started this blog and i started it to be a way for me to say nmy ideas because i belive myspace was still poppin at the time and facebook was aight n i hate facebook still but i might go back to it recently i have used it as an digatal diary talking about my dayand such and andlately ive used it for a theripist its like my blog is not gonnna get mad at me becvaue im geeting on it nervousrs or it dont have problems to juggles so i wont worry about it rejecting due to frecsration so blog please continue being my digatal ear when noone else wanna listen

200th post

but yall dont care for my 200th post ill tell a story idreamed i was in the psycho ward for cutting myself to the point of passing out and i was there in the bed rocking back and forth really losing i did soome teeth chating thing (like perry the platuspus ) and when it comes to visting it was my friends and shit but something shocked me (i wont use names but they will know who they are ) blu and pikachu wasnt there they never came once(neither did bb but she came in the end ) so i gotta belive maybe they dont want to be in my life or i dont need them as much as i thought but i knbow i wanted them because during the dream cried for them but it was more that i cry he more suicidal i eould get and i wouldnt get better idk whatdo this mean ? ibut lately i been more love full ?( meaning neeed affrtion n shit so affectionite?) but i cant control it im gonna lt u in on a sercet i sleep with a pillow and pretend its a girl who sleeps with me and hold me back (commence the laughing ......................................................SILENCE ) wish i didnt have to resort to this but i do leting my imagaination run wild and start to be in love with the lover inside me which means maybe ill llearn to love me and staop depending on people and yes i depend on people alot of people by the way if i couyld read mind to see who like me r dont and who love me ithis would be soo much easier .......... i want to make this long but long with a reason oh yeah im deleteing my face book or just wont get on it because noone listen to what i got to say but if a popular person says it its 23 likes and 11 cimments the only time u would hear my opion about something would be in a song (anit no point of trying to cry and act u like care about what i say so ill speak no louder then a song to show u gotta to listen to me neway) but i guess thats about it good afternoon good night good morning good life peace

FUCK EM ALL

OK IM BOUT TO CH MOST OF U PPL

meaning im not gonna say when or if iam but im not talking to noone unless its absolutely serious u 52 wondering y im doing this well to simply put it i dont know honestly it just crazy now n i dont feel like im relevant or anything like that i been doing this for a while by mistake n too be honest where the fuck do i fit in at but im not gonna get into all that just an heads up n i am still writing lyrics and im really starting to hate this fone n the voices in my head are now insulting me alot lately sad im a bad joke noone laughing and repeat it because it is truly funny but it was something so bad that it gave an reversed response anit that bad thing idc nemore right umm yea

DONE

2 time pokemon champion

well this title have nuffin to do with the sub ject of this post my grandfather is in the hospital and it made me think back when going to his house was someimes enjoyable like my cuzin was there and i had friends on that block but it all changed thats the one flaw with growing when ur young u wanna be a teen when u a teen most times u wanna be and adult and on june 9th i willno longer be consider a teen and when ur an an adult u wanna be kid again well ikinda wish i could be 3 or 4 again no worrys about : death money money happiness college work love life all u gotta do is wake up eat ceral go run outside like ur crazy come back in n do it again ......is it sad that is what i do now 17 years later and the same shit ugh foh listening to dyme a duzin or some other artist til i go to sleep night well morning

know im takin about yall

so im sick right now its 3 n i was suppose to be outsid3 having fun or something but me not im watchin deliver us from eva now n this movie is pissin me off evern more so im stuck in here untill like 5 or 6 i need new friends with my antisocial ass foh but its alot of bs i gotta deal with ceck this out in order to escape reality i go into my own world when i skate i act likeim shadow the hedgehog human form n escape taht way i hate ppl so i relate to others and didnt i say this last time but its trueeeeee where my....whatever

im

im hard...ly able to be considered a good guy i have no reason to blog but to make a post i hate my life some people in it the situration for me and them all i want is the love i want is that too hard to ask my relgion is now a rollercoaster of ideas and thought like i know we should follow him but he dont want us to be happy ? like really maybe i get it when i grow up some more i dont have a job a social life or friends that live close its just shadow (my skate broad) baby black (my mp3 player) and ebonys mans onxy but thats enough but u wanna know why tthey are the only ones? because none of them can talk but they still feel if i have a bad day my mp3 player will last longer and shadow will go faster its like they are the only ones who get not oone human get me well bye peace

like wtf

im over here crying its more frustractions like i feel lost but somehow in a box its like i dont get then its like im the only one who does whats gonna be next ive attempted suicide somany times that i feel li cant die i need help long time ago i scarfice my happiness my happiness so i can be here for yall i hope yall is proud and happy imma run away but notone place to go i need some real help

death babies and delaware

i found out my unc died today due to heart atack i wa talkin about him yesterday and talkin to him a few weeks ago he wanted to hear my music it just hit u awhile probley wont hit me till im in the house in his old pictures he looked like he had fun n shit he did its weird he had a video on his fone talkin about he out smh lime he knew but he died in his sleep which is peaceful but while in delawae with my grnadmom ad othe family members i notice that it was like 3 babies there cant help imaging thats an replcement of 3 souls that passed m other unc and my dads grandmom n im not as much upset as much as alil more detacated shit ofwgkta got famous around this age so what thefuck is stopping i need one my female bestie but really need my gf like now +think befoe u act peace

hahahahahahai got a new fone

im lying in bed listing to instrumentals most of them love ones did a verse for one its about ....... nvm but i saw a girlwho had 3different hair color lipsstick and mascara a pink top a blue tutu and black jeggens n had the furry leg warmers and dicked kicks but besides the people lookin at her like she was a hot mess i looked like she was hot and then i notice she was a girl i liked before it weird she always comes when i got someone ugh at the hot mess girl but ye igot a touch sceen fone but im getting use to it and i need a word for my fone and hot mess girl because both of them come when un needed like i used to los3 my old foneall the time now he all up on me give me some space how about clingy nasa or magums because that shit give me no space tmi but my arm is gettin tired lol peace yall