she /her

she really doesnt understand that she means alot to me she loves what we repersent but dosent love we as an couple of kids its nothing thst i did  but as i grow older  my tolerence get lower we text back an forth but the reponse gets slower
i love her see her as a lover but not suposee to be undercover wantimg her more n more idk whats in store but i belive its the cure to the bore/dom n the loniess make me miss her with every lonely kiss i love her she loves me  if i cant have it all then it coiuldnt be 

             BOW !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im going off the grid 
peace 

YEA WHERE THE FUCK AM I IN THIS LIFE

ok this the last post(not really) i just don't feel like talking about the same shit go look at my previous post my first one was in 09 so when u have a lil free time go look at them but today i could have recorded but i didn't the last two song i was on was done terribly but that's my fault either i was too low or ..... too low. For some reason i cant rap in front of my friends (DON'T FUCKING ASK ME I DON'T KNOW WHY) i want drugs (you said that before fat ass )ummmm i didn't feel right today(......) yea i wanted to commit suicide (now i know u said that) but i was serious i was on the ledge and i was about to jump in the water maybe about 4 stories up it was pretty big n idk what stopped me it really wasn't because of the people in my life or whatever i have no ambition motivation confidence or any of that bullshit  idk what was it when i got off i couldn't listen to music and feel nor rap to it( u never could u fat bitch stankin pussy) thought of college and my future on the way home but yea might be the last post(no it wont) because  said what i had to say

GROWING UP IS OVERRATED

OK IN 2 MONTHS ILL BE 20 AND AS A TEENAGER I DON'T FEEL SATISFIED OR FULFILLED WITH THE RESULT NOTHING HAPPEN THAT WAS BIG N ACCORDING TO MY DAD THIS MARKS THE YEAR OF MY STARVING ARTIST PHASE WHAT HE DON'T KNOW IS idc to be homeless not something i want to be but if its no way out hey fuck it i wont be school like i thought due to my dad he swear its a scam and he want me to be in the art school of Philadelphia like i don't wanna do what u did bull but whATEVER UMMM MORE ABOUT BEING AN ASS LATE TEEN OK ACCORDING TO SOCIETY MY REBELLIOUSNESS STAGE SHOULD BE OVER AND I BECOME AN ACTIVE MEMBER OF SOCIETY FOH fuck the government the world till i die still wanna to kill america and i still wanna blow up the world i need to wash my hair N WHERES THE FUCK IS MY JOB enough complain about stuff that's out of my control but i don't like telling my problems and shit like this to neone but my blog and my music foh

birthday wish lists

ok i was supposeto make this awhile ago but here it is 1.skate shoes 2. rockband mic 3. a meal from micky ds(seriously ) 4.a scott pilgrim vs.??? book (neone would do) 5.a simple happy birthday 6. saints row 3 7. 3 milkshakes from newhere(nefavlor ) 8. hug n a kiss (limited ppl i swear if neof yall put yall crusty ass lips on me) 9.some captain cruch ceral 10. dont stress me out thats it ummm yea i think all besides saints row 3 areunder 30 dollars

this is me u gotta learn how too laugh at urself sometime and i find this funny lol

SOPA changes name to CISPA

fuck love = add love

is bascily u nolonger the focus in the relaiship [im not gonna complain on this one] now example [ [not one of my personal ones] she in it for something else[money fame or "it looks nice '] he want something eles[sex] she want anotger not another[ emotion connection not pyscallnor mental] and he dont want to cause pain [ breaks up] its add love loseing focus on the fact that a relation ship is in for love and nuffin else soo everybody who reads this let me ask u do u have add love?

or how about ur parner do thjey have add love

take a second think

about

it

peace

how

aobut

me

u

ask

i jst wanna be happpy on that note........

the question why

should i give a fuck about the topic or situration if u dont i wont neither and on that note let me saythat right now im in a psychcitic mood right now for one 2 i m feeling a tad bitsuicideal and 33 im upset so mixed together that is a resipe for disazter but im oot gonna speak my mind for the fouth time this week it couse probelm so what im gonna do is be happy fake my happiness for a min thats all its about ruight happiness so ill happiness and see if it makesw u nhappy and u is neone who reads becuz nobody is profect i nrrd some drugs right now or to cut my.... nvm

PEACE

WELL FOR YALL AT LEAST

UMMMMMMMMMM

NUFFIN ELSE TO SAY NOW

shut the fuck up and kissme

thats the name of a song its about the diffuculty of reliships in that"awkward phase" where u gettin to know.people likea potinal bf and gf the defanation of dating basicly nice huh

is it her soul that i love ....... is it her soul that i love or

her body i love her work of body i cant treat like shes just nebody now thats a ch song called omg whos that now u prob askin y did i quote that the answe is idk it sound nice and was in my head"j3tt now u on the subject of females whats good with that" what u mean female"yea dickfart females" well my aunt gettin married idk when cause i wasn invinted smh ironicly my friend birthday is today [happy birthday alisha] an i got a reason why my gf was "neglatein" me she focusin on school ok(in my ch shepretty ) but my best friend has no excuse known her for 2 yrs last month and nd never saw her anit that a bitch (didnt call her a bitch) but itsjust .....o look at dat dont feeellike talk8in about it laziness at its finest "finish it u fat shit"ok its just like wtf i wanna hang out with feamles because some of yall point of veiw be crazy n shit tbh i be bored like now but i dontlike my friends forthere body (i just want to make it a full circle sorry tahts its forced" ar yall but y the fuck jerry slide down a pole f wrong with u jerry peace

what i think about 4 am

ok its quiet i dont even hear my fan my mom took it out my window [who told her to do that i had a nice tempture with the conforter and a fan on low] but the thing i i hear is the type of my bloggin and judgein by sound i can type fast but not accurere and if i listen even farther i hear the faint sounds of cars drivin blocks away because its so quuiet that even sound from afar can be heard i just fine this tranquil not hearing"ayo where my shit at ,nigga ill fuck u up stop playing with me" and of course " i got thate green out , lusys lusy" [a lusy is one loose cig just in case u didnt know] but neaway idk know what to do hopefully ill get thisrite aid job get some money save it up and get a place thats kinda on my mind for like that longest i want a place where i can come and go when i please i can eat nething and take it up with me only wont worry about nebody and record [ swore i was going to say partys naw thats not me im not about that life] but im hungry bout to fuck up some spitgetti and did u know this is probely my longest post without the depression and that great u guys im growin up a lil bit yaaaaaayyyyyyy[kermit voice] umm idk what more to say oh yea i got writers block for one reason i got a lit cas3 of add i m tryin to do it all withthe skatein the video games the hair styles yea im been doing everything but what im suppose to which is rappin or writng to be excant its kinda pissing me of tho cause i used to be the shit n now i cant think of one punchline call it lazy no because 8im doing other stuff i swear on everything i will write and complete a song today and i will put my all in it not every song i put my all in turn out hot its just help me break from this funk of qritting i can freestyle and freestyle well but yea im done im getttin real thirsty and hungry i wish i had a better day tomarrow oh yea today was ass it was just mainly disappointmentand bored which explain why im up at 4 i went to sleep at 11 i brung that around full circle huh well im eating and going back to sleep peace and much love to ya

blood on the ground

the cold hand touch my hot face

incubus echos in the background

us in the foreground

nufin can break this moment '

except me and you

but more of u and i react to ur plan

but my plan is a lil different

instand of cutting u and leave u to die

im cuting myself giving up

btw i did try

randumb poem it was on my mind

im start listiing to rock[music] more and write a song aday about my emotions because i hate the fact that swace is catchin up to me [its the flow then the lyrics ] but i surpassed him before and ill do it again n btw ...... i forgot o.o thats not good

peace

10 reason y im bad at relationships

1 get bored fast
2 fall in love too fast

3 i am emotion unstable

4 do my best not to tell how im feeling[execpt to my blog]
5 noone take the time to understand ;u could connect it to 4

6 i compare our relationships to others [could be a postive]

7 sometimes selfish

8 broke

9 love too hard [if that make a sence]

10 im me wont change unless needed n that fact that im all these negative traits plus more rolled in one

im tired really because o skating this life n other type of bullshit its like i odnt even go to the liberary nemore maybe because i cant share my intelent [if thats spellled wrong ill look so stupid] same goes for my rhymes i belive in mind that noone whas to hear them but idc about that well wait i haveto because as ofnow i have no work ethic the last time i looked for a job was feb the last time i wrote a rhyme was last weekbut im done complain i gotta eat some noodles nw should make some tea as well oh and im suppose to see my friend to marrow but idk

i scream what i want and i scream

love trust passion

sex with emotion connection

love with a lust for passion

too much to askfor in this world or too much top ask for one girl [tee hee]

butto be honest that what i need

to love me

need me

want me

please me

now a girl didnt do tis that y we broke up ill explain in greater detail next time

peace n im notsingle btw

and so it begins it

but idkwhre to start....let me take it back i want to stop talking to everybody (everybody?) EVERYBODY dont ask y look down at my previous "depressing" post but have an date either april 1st or april 20th y because i want to find out shit bout kme and other ppl n to chu u no i need u its just its soo much u cant handle like 247 (well kinda) n its not "possible" but w\e im tired both ways pysically mentally n btw im hearing voic3s they different pitches then mine peace

trayvon

ok im pretty sure everyone knows about him and im more mad at the race of the child then the crime u wanna know why because thats the focus not the fact that a grown ass man killed a child no the factt that a WHITE man killed a BLACK child and u have to ask ur self if u see an guy on the corer what u thing" oh u yea he looks like a college gragrate"so even in our race we have racism u dontr know how many times i ve herad "nigga why u skateing u anit white or yu listening to rock u and white t" this limit us in a box and by us i mean the human race but as sooon as a eventthat invole a race hurting black its a probelm its a n uproar but what about lil tyreek that got shot byu jamalor nicki minaj big sean makinsexual music that the world listen to and have sex and when i mean world so that y by 18 most womren have already had a child or children(statics) n whos race the black race so hush that black shit up becaue u cant be agaisnt zimmerman but support ymcm its he same team to take out balck ppl

that 200 post lookkinda good

its been 2 yrs since i started this blog and i started it to be a way for me to say nmy ideas because i belive myspace was still poppin at the time and facebook was aight n i hate facebook still but i might go back to it recently i have used it as an digatal diary talking about my dayand such and andlately ive used it for a theripist its like my blog is not gonnna get mad at me becvaue im geeting on it nervousrs or it dont have problems to juggles so i wont worry about it rejecting due to frecsration so blog please continue being my digatal ear when noone else wanna listen

200th post

but yall dont care for my 200th post ill tell a story idreamed i was in the psycho ward for cutting myself to the point of passing out and i was there in the bed rocking back and forth really losing i did soome teeth chating thing (like perry the platuspus ) and when it comes to visting it was my friends and shit but something shocked me (i wont use names but they will know who they are ) blu and pikachu wasnt there they never came once(neither did bb but she came in the end ) so i gotta belive maybe they dont want to be in my life or i dont need them as much as i thought but i knbow i wanted them because during the dream cried for them but it was more that i cry he more suicidal i eould get and i wouldnt get better idk whatdo this mean ? ibut lately i been more love full ?( meaning neeed affrtion n shit so affectionite?) but i cant control it im gonna lt u in on a sercet i sleep with a pillow and pretend its a girl who sleeps with me and hold me back (commence the laughing ......................................................SILENCE ) wish i didnt have to resort to this but i do leting my imagaination run wild and start to be in love with the lover inside me which means maybe ill llearn to love me and staop depending on people and yes i depend on people alot of people by the way if i couyld read mind to see who like me r dont and who love me ithis would be soo much easier .......... i want to make this long but long with a reason oh yeah im deleteing my face book or just wont get on it because noone listen to what i got to say but if a popular person says it its 23 likes and 11 cimments the only time u would hear my opion about something would be in a song (anit no point of trying to cry and act u like care about what i say so ill speak no louder then a song to show u gotta to listen to me neway) but i guess thats about it good afternoon good night good morning good life peace

FUCK EM ALL

OK IM BOUT TO CH MOST OF U PPL

meaning im not gonna say when or if iam but im not talking to noone unless its absolutely serious u 52 wondering y im doing this well to simply put it i dont know honestly it just crazy now n i dont feel like im relevant or anything like that i been doing this for a while by mistake n too be honest where the fuck do i fit in at but im not gonna get into all that just an heads up n i am still writing lyrics and im really starting to hate this fone n the voices in my head are now insulting me alot lately sad im a bad joke noone laughing and repeat it because it is truly funny but it was something so bad that it gave an reversed response anit that bad thing idc nemore right umm yea

DONE

2 time pokemon champion

well this title have nuffin to do with the sub ject of this post my grandfather is in the hospital and it made me think back when going to his house was someimes enjoyable like my cuzin was there and i had friends on that block but it all changed thats the one flaw with growing when ur young u wanna be a teen when u a teen most times u wanna be and adult and on june 9th i willno longer be consider a teen and when ur an an adult u wanna be kid again well ikinda wish i could be 3 or 4 again no worrys about : death money money happiness college work love life all u gotta do is wake up eat ceral go run outside like ur crazy come back in n do it again ......is it sad that is what i do now 17 years later and the same shit ugh foh listening to dyme a duzin or some other artist til i go to sleep night well morning

know im takin about yall

so im sick right now its 3 n i was suppose to be outsid3 having fun or something but me not im watchin deliver us from eva now n this movie is pissin me off evern more so im stuck in here untill like 5 or 6 i need new friends with my antisocial ass foh but its alot of bs i gotta deal with ceck this out in order to escape reality i go into my own world when i skate i act likeim shadow the hedgehog human form n escape taht way i hate ppl so i relate to others and didnt i say this last time but its trueeeeee where my....whatever

im

im hard...ly able to be considered a good guy i have no reason to blog but to make a post i hate my life some people in it the situration for me and them all i want is the love i want is that too hard to ask my relgion is now a rollercoaster of ideas and thought like i know we should follow him but he dont want us to be happy ? like really maybe i get it when i grow up some more i dont have a job a social life or friends that live close its just shadow (my skate broad) baby black (my mp3 player) and ebonys mans onxy but thats enough but u wanna know why tthey are the only ones? because none of them can talk but they still feel if i have a bad day my mp3 player will last longer and shadow will go faster its like they are the only ones who get not oone human get me well bye peace

like wtf

im over here crying its more frustractions like i feel lost but somehow in a box its like i dont get then its like im the only one who does whats gonna be next ive attempted suicide somany times that i feel li cant die i need help long time ago i scarfice my happiness my happiness so i can be here for yall i hope yall is proud and happy imma run away but notone place to go i need some real help

death babies and delaware

i found out my unc died today due to heart atack i wa talkin about him yesterday and talkin to him a few weeks ago he wanted to hear my music it just hit u awhile probley wont hit me till im in the house in his old pictures he looked like he had fun n shit he did its weird he had a video on his fone talkin about he out smh lime he knew but he died in his sleep which is peaceful but while in delawae with my grnadmom ad othe family members i notice that it was like 3 babies there cant help imaging thats an replcement of 3 souls that passed m other unc and my dads grandmom n im not as much upset as much as alil more detacated shit ofwgkta got famous around this age so what thefuck is stopping i need one my female bestie but really need my gf like now +think befoe u act peace

hahahahahahai got a new fone

im lying in bed listing to instrumentals most of them love ones did a verse for one its about ....... nvm but i saw a girlwho had 3different hair color lipsstick and mascara a pink top a blue tutu and black jeggens n had the furry leg warmers and dicked kicks but besides the people lookin at her like she was a hot mess i looked like she was hot and then i notice she was a girl i liked before it weird she always comes when i got someone ugh at the hot mess girl but ye igot a touch sceen fone but im getting use to it and i need a word for my fone and hot mess girl because both of them come when un needed like i used to los3 my old foneall the time now he all up on me give me some space how about clingy nasa or magums because that shit give me no space tmi but my arm is gettin tired lol peace yall

pand t

ill ratther get PIERCING then TATOOS idk y but i have been tellin ppl imight get a tougue im only half serious ABOUT GETTING ONE BUT I DO WANT a piercing of some sort n i need to start working out again i got a goal to have an acceptable [beach] body not all crazy b pumper [commence pumper dance] type husky but just sexy i cangoto NJ n they be like omg i wanna slob on his knob then i look down and be like where my dick go lol[ go watch odd future rella video] but im bored back to porn games and food

Self esteem Suide

you fat black stanking motherfucker
you a bad boyfriend bad son and a bad brother
im broke so i have to dress like a bum
i didnt even get my dipolma im so fn dumb
along with my family im bad at being a best friend
and rapping
what happen
when is this gonna end


[im done]

7pills 3cuts n3 hours later......?
nuffin happen
nuffin fn happen
NOTHING
FUCKING
HAPPEN
2nd S.A OF THE YEAR

the highlight of my day is prob gonna be going to the liberary foh i need a hug

ALON3

As much as im alone im supprised i never made post about it ..........ok it was menticon but never as a main topicn idc if i have its my blog but im not alone physically but it more of emotionally ,sexually (masterbation not her fault tho .....yet) n musically ii listen to trip hop nu metal jazz and etc but you see im different cant get along with people that well [my answer to my antisocial-ness] i guess
happy without me
i shouldnt givea fuck
writing sloppy
fuck trust
give it right up
but on the other hand
another man
can find what i lost

random poem.......or is it heres a nothter

fuck everyone around me some of them
dont want me to be happy
im used to fun but getting the f out
put it infront of happy to wonder y i pout
i walk to clear my mind or get away from problems
itsw funny how most times i start them
they say u snooze uu lose
well im only happy in my sleep idc if i lose


im done

I NO I HATE THE LOOK TOO

I try to make it look different but it came out lke this ugh i fuckin hate it
just like alot of peopple they hate me n i finally no y
i love too hard
but scared to fall n love
and they fall in love
n they are in it with me
its a said relaiztion i found out a whgile ago but its what evr
but neway
i have also notice my life now revolves around
games
porn
music
n food

that is terrible i hate the fact that it is true tho
lissten i dont have a job
ore going to school
or have friends

well i have friends there are either
A too busy to hang out or
B too far to hang out
or sometimes both
but ...
neway if yall cared
but yall dont because im never asked
the music is fine welll kinda

i got consepts n lyrics but
too many distractions
neway

LOVE
LIVE
DOMO
;]

Hearts heartache

Hearts heartache
listen to this track bitch

today nobody cares but tomarrow they will

ttooken out of context and still make since thanks lu but is true thoeveryone had an excuse/reason not to hang out now when i stay in its a problem. like what the fuck a beautiful ass friday FRIDAY and im alone then it hit me i wasnt alone i had charles hamilton wasalu jaco asher roth kendrick lamar olubowale akintimehin juaquin malphrus briana latrice joe budden joell ortiz dominick wickliffe ryan mountgomey etc its a shame where people from various place help u more then your friends smh but listen ....... naw nvm idc tbh i dont know why i still make these noone reads them if they did i could tell but what ever i guess if i die they can read this in feel bad like y didnt we help n somewhere on the blog its gonna say ITS YOUR FUCKING FAULT DUMBASS MAYBE IF YOUR WOULD HAVE SAID I LOVE YOU BACK WHEN I WAS ALIVE I PROBOLEY WONT BE DIED yup somethiung like that

u just do the opposite

not the fuckin first time i heard this from a girl i was goin with yannie and she said that phrase and that im young check this out when helping someone u doint push ur veiws on someone u u give advice or give a 3rd eye but thjis gotta be short because even more unstableneed mee :(

the Last Memories of Severus Snape

positivty 1-2-2012 _ 2-11-2012

ok ever since my suicide failure on the first day of the year i said i was going to be positive for the rest of the year and if that wasn't a hard few weeks well it soften up the 16th but it was still hard it seem when u walk on the good bright side the more the darkness come but if ur in darkness u get used to imean i really wish i could go back in timein fix my life but shit who dosent maybe im suppose to be this way( u no damn that not true )why the hell not it is (nigga there is people in Africa starvi...) stfu about that because i don't fucking live in Africa there are people here who are ..(in that s ur problem stop comparing ur life with other ppls) i cant they awesome life ias all around (stfu yoo u sound stupid) u too another person to tell me what i say is bull shit (...) see even i think im wrong i hate myself nothing to like im ugly im rude n sadistic and i dint care im anti social n weird not unique weird im not a good musician rapper lyricist flowist or even producer its like i thought that was my talent i guess i don't one im useless im jobless lazy un motivated just an all around bad person maybe trhe worse

couples songs

since v day is right around the coner i decided to do the song that was connected to our relatship illl use nicenames so ppl wont no and the song i mad for u

yannie: black and gold/bite
boo boo kitty fuck :two tatoos/jade
kitten:all my life /y should i
jf:come back to u /sugar to shit

Tommy Wiseau's "The Neighbors" Trailer

two homelessppl

u just have to watch this below

Butt Naked Wonda, Big Brotha Thunda and The Masta Blasta

Derrick's Shouting Homeless Realtor

hiiii

look at the 3 videos and the blog post two of them are songs and one is an edited seneane on a movie i locve ur girl unless u are girl then i love u lol immma goon boss killa lemprcan a samiutal goblin and most ogf all DOMO

wcth this lol

http://youtu.be/LGEL7Hz0vXg

i couldnt sleep last night n idk y

first of tgif im in delaware
n shit
do u no wat i loive
stuff ok
i was forced to make a blog post
idint want to
but she watching me
she might kill me :(
ok i do a few condfessiion
1 i hate to smile it hurts my face
2 i suck my thumb only if im tired or upset (or when im tranquil)
3 so far only 3 white girls got pastr my radar adale lily allen and the girl from harry potter belartrix lastrange
4 i cant fight (yeah right try me)
5 i have songs on my mp3 that i have yet to listen to
6 i love rootbeer under cream soda
7 ill hump the shit out whatever u on o.0
8 ive met the girl of my dreams in my dreams
9 i fight in my sleep sometimes
1o tommy wiseua is a funny guy
11 arthur is a good show
12 i used to masterbate in public (n i think thats enough )
i fight evil and watchn(not look) good during it
oh and
13 i saw stupid hoe by nicki minaj im slowing losing attraction to her in order to fuck her she gotta have her vocal cord cliped no wig she cant look at me or make noice she irk my soul no shoes or headphones
getit


.........
\
no
think about it
im out

Tag team

Tag team

B.I.T(E)

B.I.T(E)

after amonth

ofbeingpostive hetre comes the negative dk know what it is im just negatie im goin to get a surgey formy tyroid i hope i wont have to more shitabout my lifeis .....i have agirfirnd because i was really tired of sacrficing myhappiness for this other bitch (use this word loosely) but6 she makes me happy butthats weird i thoughtshewasntgoing toshooking hense the namewe suppose tomake ateam mixtape becausenot another go by n imnot heardim serious this year ihave about4 5 songs noone have ever heard or even knowaboutbut still immaK.N.O.T (kill niggas on tracks)wellimbout togo walk ihave a feeling noone will appriecate me un till ..... nvm

first of the year

i feel terrible i was alone all day it kept makin me upset sad or whatever i prefer the word melancholy i went for a walk to clear my mind n i was accused of going to commit suicide smh at my mom i told myself that i can be more positive this year but with all the negative shit in the world its kinda hard to do n by the way i got a writers block and its in the way i got shit to say but nuffin comes out right maybe it a sign that i shouldn't be a musician i idk really i still have the feeling that im above average humans like im superman kinda like im special well im bout to go upstairs and platy soul caliber 4 n btw again i beat devil may cry it waas alright i wouldn't play it again n it 2am n im eating dinner chicken sweet potatoes greens cornbread macaroni goddamn i need a life or girlfriend .......shit at this time just a good friend because it seem like im everyone else best friend instead them being mine like just listen to me and stop waiting for your turn to talk or using my words against me and in that case .........

Let me[2]

Let me[2]

last day of the year

fuck 2011 nuffin was special about ok i had a job shit 2 butgot fired from both because of some bs ihad girl broke up been single ever since lcant stand both myparent but who can i have awriters block when i always have something to say i wnt to a psych ward n LOVED it theren found out i have and over active typhoid n for the last half of the year i was alone not in physically but mentally like noone can get me its like im singled ou i feel like im above human like im here to save the world like clark kent butim to sucicidal n slow to live that wrong if i dont do it today i will do it april 20th ,june9th or december25th but im preetty sureim gonna do it today no love nofriend guess im going to play the game and cut myself till ibleed to death i already go two so about 10000 more to go

The eve of new year eve1st copy

The eve of new year eve1st copy

The most disappointed I have ever been

Yo fuck today I may be whining but its better then cutting besides the fact I got a wallet for christmas (thanks mom) I was trying to get my new fone then chill with my.ex but she didnt answer ok cool w/e ill hang with the bros the guy with the fone took too long so I went to cheltenham my friends r nowhere to be.found plus I couldnt get.my fone so im.gonna binge on something n got mute for a while sorry

updates n sht

fuck i cant writetoo much shit on my mind and not tghe right instrumental to behonest imslippin more inmy fantasy world and i belivethatswhatsfuckin me up n shit i seea differentworld like im in a place with my gf with superposwers n shit im tired of pepole trying to sayor dolike they canin these shoesi see all blackusee light blue why.....aorry my mood is fucked upi hatepeople

I hateu

You know that saying everything is not going to go ur way well nuffin goes my way im tired of it all I wamna od but to od on Ime sick sad upset and tired night ill makw alonger one later like anybody reads thia im a.fuckin failure

If I play sonic the hamilton 7 out of 10 I'm upset

and this is y i cantbe happy

people not one person in this fuckin life understands me either get mad confused or just dontcare im letting yall know now this will be the most depressing mixtape eva the depressing december no da depressing december 3d ilike that fuckthe others im going to play devil may cry 4 i love that game andgo to sleep while lising to korn and on thatnote
peace

all this time

yay thiswill be my 151st post!!!! i didnt know gettin a blog will help mystress well it did but i got a mp3 player an 8g but come to find outi lost it it yesterday while it was raining buti did get a new game and controller devil may cry 4 bitch!!!!! but its aloton my mind about alot since i JUST found out aboutcharles hamilton illumatati exsperence like wtf that dude was my idol in music and i find out they push a female persona onhim likeWTF maybe it was his imagination gonewild idkbut thats something to think aboutand on that note

you left me
just to come back
pick me up
just 2 put me down
inorder to put u 1st
maybethefirst will give me clousure
first day of the year
maybe made with cheer
maybe you wouldnt care
but we should be happy u here
peace

I had a dream that zombies took over Costco n i got stuck in the toy store n I had to jump out the window onthat note

idkoncemore

i need an amy rose or at least a peach
amyrose-a female who has acrush on u
peach-a girl you have to fight for

Wow Shit crazy

10 things that turn me on (first sight)

1.ponytails
2.headphones
3.darker complexion
4.real hair
5.thick(sorry skinny girls i still love yall)
6.boobs
7.ass
8.litle ass teeth
9.no makeup (only if needed)
10.flamboyent colors

1.idk whyi even like this feature i guessitsbecause itsasimple hairstyle andif ucanmake that look good u a good lookin girl

2.idk why i like this one eitherbut i do so go geth the, skullcandys lol

3.made a whole song abot this go download the mixtape

4.its nothing better then seeing no weaveand real hair weave is a lil sign of insercurty i like dreads as well :)

5.idk its make me wanna beat them they sojuicy

6. not just big boobs but nice lookin boobs thats proption to ur body like a c cup isurssally not big but on a skinny girl damn!

7. same as 6

8.this createsa cute as smile so when im lookin at ur mouth im not thinkin bout headbut "damn this girl has a cute ass smile "

9.natural beauty is the best but some girls look better with it sorry

10.colors hitthe human eys firstso if u wearing yellow or pink(pink is better) then its automatic turnon (because of this ihate when old ppl wear them itsthe complete opposite)

So im nevous about this job its demandin its akot of bread so oviously im makin a studio but im nayurally nervous ugh life is lookin up so im scared

Iwanna die nuff said.....
(jtripdub)

I feel terrible i think today might be the day i do it and go thoru wif it because im tired of this

Or do u not think so far ahead cause i was thinkin bout forever
(....)

Ppl i will make to mixtapes one called A.B.C :ready to go and one called the females (in) my life(fml) yup
(....)

wat thye blog gonna b

idk i have some shit to say n dont wannna sayit im almost done my mixtapw n because of that i will post my old wack one up here hope my new onew is better sorry its soo short but the thoughts in my mind must trransfer into words first

emotion n feelings are useless
expeally love it will makje u cluless
whodis
y they want kiss
like the 4 lips
we split

im pissed

Lifeislike a baby with a toy then someone takes it thats all it is just having happiness and someoone takes it away and the rest of ur life u might try to get it back but u cant so im done tomarrow is uncertain is soo true right now because i dont think that ill make it there its like sometimes i wanna die then sometimes i dont so i smoke to get cancer but that besides the point im in thge wrong eveeryone is right i need helo i wish i was in the psych ward again or die ir both its the onl yplace i was happy at pissed my own godsamn blog it fuckin up hate the world at delaware takecare of ur self

ghju

idk if my blog works :(

today

Lifeislike a baby with a toy then someone takes it thats all it is just having happiness and someoone takes it away and the rest of ur life u might try to get it back but u cant so im done tomarrow is uncertain is soo true right now because i dont think that ill make it there its like sometimes i wanna die then sometimes i dont so i smoke to get cancer but that besides the point im in thge wrong eveeryone is right i need helo i wish i was in the psych ward again or die ir both its the onlyu place i was happy at

blackberry, R.I.P,hiphop and other shit

its been a lot to happening to me so i havent been on here like soo long but ive been workin on a mixtape as u can tell by the title my blackberry is currently out of use and im kinda bittersweet about because i really want a blackberry but it was too slow for me and the trackball was mad retard so if i get a chance to get a new one i probably will get it also imma release this mixtape around nov 8,9,10 one of them im releaseing 2 at a time also im starting to get into fast rap like tech n9ne , twista, busta,yelawolf, go listeen to worldwide chooppers u will be amased also im findin it hard to be single recently because everybody got a girl execpt for fat black ugly ass blizzi i do that alot make fun of myself y idk i want to get high but i made a promise to someoone i wouldnt and that certain (who will remind nameless) is kinda playing with my emothionm and she dont even kno it i think about someone i cant have its soo sad and i want her soo bad but its whatever bring skill back to hiphop but i still wanna die nothing more nothing les well i take back i just want those pillsand /or go back to the psych ward sad but its true ok im out peace

Thisisfb backpackkid3@yahoo.com

how I feel

I really wanna say that I feel good but I really don't I still real sick like I'm sick of life I'm sick of being betrayed hury n disappointed and the crazy part is the people who disappoint me are really close to me but ithink that myfault I put to much trust in ppl I want artificial happiness now my one e dont listen the other think Ime overreacting so I feel alone in this world with now one to understand me I kill myself soo bad right now but I cantt hopefully life will get better but it wont with my fat black ugly ass I hate the fuck outta myself

my bio music wise

Born on the 9th of June 1992 in southwest Philadelphia,PA. J3tt blizzi stared music in 6th grade making silly party songs. By the 8th grade he was freestyleing frequently at recess,but by 10th grade he met up with Neek and Rush and made a group called Dat Easy Money(DEM)squad. After the group shortly disbanded J3tt blzzi and Neek decided to still rap together Until they met cooly Mcloud. Then these three decided to make a group(Fly wit ambition)just like DEM squad it was disbanded shortly.After Neek's cousin asked to make a group the 4 man group became Brothers n Arms. This the last straw for J3tt because like the previous group this group disbanded also. so J3tt decided to go solo. Believing that its 3 main points for rap :concept Lyrics and flow. He said that he raps for the losers,misfit,outcasts,weirdos who don't rap so he raps for them. Be on a look out for him because as he said u gotta be different to make a difference.

Playlist

I hate touch fones soon fn bad but watevea im goon to my dads soon it will be typed out
GoodMorning
Not jokes
Fuck danny devitio
Lol
.Blackcream.
Bonkera
LastFight.
WeOn.
Dread cpnnection
Tje way of then crab
Gfl
Music
Bloody knuclkes
LunarMorning
MyProblem
MySoulatiom
SpeakingTruth
Antisocial attitude
91211
LatenightOn tantoween
Gts
Show n prove
J x3

playlist

Ok if this blog look wired im on a touch and I gpt big hands ppl r usally say they r usally scared to say they are in love now whn it comes to love I fall.quicker then a lot of ppl not to say that im in love is konda true im trying not to

So since im not goin to be on for a while i hope this hold ya over

ok in philly where i live its gonna be a hurricane and it was already an earthquake eariler this week this begss the question is it the en dof the world who knows but i do kno that because of it people is gonnna get sacerd and that where fear gets power misinfomation or ignorence sad to say thats mostly blacks people belive what ever someone without doing any reseach but its the blacks that do stupid shit like one bitch usa is a state but its not all people but yea im done with this blog sorry its soo short but its a lot on my mind

wild misinformation

is not just a song title but the thing that ppl tell not lies but wild misinformation.today was a hit and miss but not geettin in to it I'm. Goin the stufio andd I thinki got a tracklist

blizzi 3x

Now. I have found out a lot of people is likein the number 3 because of gucci 3x dickridein hard so I'm take my time and tell y 3 is my favorite number
1.When I was younger I was always the third wise man or the three guy who let jesus in the stable in the christmas
2.it can replace an e which I think is laughing at me
3 My third ex I lost my virginity to
4.I like the fact that its the first odd prime number
5.3x3 equal 9 which is my birth date

fuck outta here faggot

Here we go my friend drovew me to onley terminal and my pass didn't work so I walked to logan and while walkin a guy ask this short but carzy question" hey are u a girl" I'll let that sank in ........ DO YOU THINK IAM like what the fuck I thought about what's femine about j3tt is it my swingin dreads no because lil wayne tpain have them.is it my well lit eyes.no its most likly cause of my man boobs I'm soo fn upset about it becauyse everybody sayin oh u lost wight and I. Belived them and now I just feel fat nasty and unattractive sad because I was just gettin used to my body and got my confindence ugh lige ass once again
3<.

i feel heartbroken am i suppose to

Let me give u the whole story I have a friend( well ithink had idk if we are friends still) and she was my first txtin buddy and for awhike that's all I needed but we grew attraction for each other but she wasn't ready for a bf. So I got a girlfriend and we were still friend when me and gf broke I asked her again once again her answer was no so I gotta another one and we stopped talkin and then started again she told me she lied about her age and o still was talkin to her now she's a shy person who was scared to talk on the fone well at first so was I but if I needed some thing u would think a best friend would help me shy or not no she didn't but its w/e I thought but I feel like someone took apart of me and it hurts o don't love a lot of people but when it comes to females no longer give them my heart. Or a piece of mind just give them dick and time imsorry for my future girlfriends blame the other females in my life
3<.

my reveiw on i am legend

Ok this is.nuffin spatactular I mean it deserve an oscar but no epic movie without a doubt the acting is great even tho its seem like will smith keep picking the same character 7pounds pursuit of happiness but its still a freshness about robert neville the story line wasn't lagging but my eyes wasn't glued to the screen either I also the motif of bob marley his name rob (nickname:bob) daughter named marley j3tt is not amused -_- but the light up the darkness was kinda cleaver one of the main things I hated was the cgi I mean its like someone rapping extremely fast when it works it works (overnight celebrity) but when it does (make a movie) but it too fake for me I don't see y they couldn't use real ppl its already motion captured let it be real ppl I also don't like this logic of the main dark seeker or hemocyte it seem like he was targeting him and let me say this movie could have been better for me ppl didn't tell me everything so I guess the suspense factor didn't catch me but it works as a nice lil summer block buster or for a family night I rate it a four outta 5. 7out of 10. A full price movie. A wale film

yup im still up

I watched the sunrise I wish someone watched it with me :( being alone sucks while watchin I am legend for the first I finnaly felt that feelin the feelin of loniness. Maybe because ever since 7 I was talkin to bit(shoutout) and gummi (shoutout 2) but beside the point I see where will smith is goin thro I am the loniness where imagenation takes over and such well imma rate the movie when I finish it expect another blog soon. 3<

The perfect analogy for my life right now is an airplane that was on autopilot now is being controlled by a pilot that how I feelunready un organize. Etc but as i look more and more into I find that true that I can't look inside and find happiness because that side of me is fight with melacoly side its like what joe budden said sometime I hate my reflection other times im con seeded well it true tho i love myself and hate myself like a girl with a devoiced husband of42 yrs

trop 10 mixtapes or albums

1wale -more about nothing
2lupe - the cool
3lupe - food and liquor
4wale -attention defect
5xv -vizzy zone
6xv -zero heros
7kanye -freshmen dropout
8nerd - fly or die
9nerd - seeing sounds
10 chris brown- chris brown

idont feel so good

A lupe song but also matches my mood I feel useless y? Beacuse I'm unproductive and out of love I mean I love a lot of ppl ok I take that I have love some ppl but I don't feel that bf/gf love that I yearn and need I'm a lover but like a bottle and pacifer I have to ween myself off of it I wanna be coldhearted because no one show me the ammount I need so I'm like a cannibal I can't have the meat o want so I wanna to not eat meat my last hope seems like she don't wanna be with me like I'm a good guy y the fuck not but its cool because when the siummer is over and the weather gets cold so will my heart

tbh

I was asked by my father why don't I have confindence io kno the anwser the years of recule the teasein bullyin and rejections and so on but I still don't kno why I'm notg happy with myself I'm alqways consided avarage or below not ever sexy only to ppl who want me other then that its never andre he is sexy I get oo the black ass nigga with blonde dreads ewww imean am I really that ugly that I can't be fuckable also as a cliffnote I hated prom for the fact of me not havein a date 2 lookin stupid with blonde hair andf a lavender suit 3 I had no date 4 I missee most of it waitin for pictures and most of all nobdoy wanted to dance with me imean I got a few dances but that's it imean I hav low self esttem the only thing I kno I'm good at is rappin I spit a cid my nigga lol no it not funny don't laugh bitch

top 10 favorite food

1 pizza
2 chcoclate
3 chicken wing
4 egg roll
5 cheesesteak
6 fried rice
7 cheese burger
8 grilled cheese
9 pancakes
10 trix yogret

ideal girl

Ard for numbere one she's gotta be smart I love intellgence if we cxan sit down and have a talk on ww 2 that's sexy another thing ivebeen cravin chcoalte lately so she gotta be chcolate she gotta be thick tits and ass and she gotta be at least a 4 in the face she gotta care about me but not to tough but still strict I gotta see her a lot she gotta be affrectionate gotta love rap able enough tro be neive at some point a girl who just as satify to hang out a park then red lobster she gotta be funny silly weird not a boring girl an encentric. Its more but icant think of them lol no not funny don't laugh bitch

the last hope

Is the girl who the rest of my love life will depend on so far all my girlfriends fuckerd up the reason y I'm single but if she fucks up I'm not only goin to be single but just fuck girls with no shame or anything just fuckin bitchesmy exes made me this way blame them

can old love revive itself

I love the way we look at each other even tho we never looked at each other face to face I take place as I take up space in her mind and the same for mine its funny how many people I love without loving myself I could care less if I let my stress bug me out as long as in the house I sit on the couch with the girl ouch that's my insercurty looking at me in a place where looks can kill I get surreal trying to make u feel like I feel about u its real but we would never I'm not afraid to show but I already know my feeling I'm waiting for u tired of being friendly I'm my own enemy just become the sidekick of me

bbs( the love of likein lust)

my mind wraps her with tightness of a boa construtor my venomous thoughts of love pumps the poisin in her vains her anedote of discontent makes her feel better but the monster myself cast another attack and let the heart the black witch doctor take her ways to forget them and so she can live in the cave withme her lust make her like love but once we made love love turns to like to dislike to hate to indifference to noncarein and that and only that can make the love monster drown in sorrows and saddness

if fast love in your eyes

eyes look at me with the lust that i need to touch or eyes look painfully cold eyes that saw years too old funny thing is that im older what i am to u ya phildrewoznoprah so tell me what u goin therugh so the world wont have to be on just u ill share the pain and share the weight now we can do now but we would do better if we wait get it if it looks wrong im sorry i wrote it on my fone

smh

AS some might have known i have wanted to kill myself recently (i still so fall the fuck back ) and i was kept sayin it was the fact i was alone but no its because im shown know affection (idont want hear in calls saying" oh i show u affection" because if u did i wont say it) but i confuse love with affirction i have many that love but didnt show affrection but the only ppl that make me happy always leave like stop that shit (and bri yes im still tryin to get over this penn state shit plz give me time)

donte inferno game reveiw

ok for my 19th birthday i barely got presents (i guess my antisocial i-don't-care-attitude was too confusing to buy me what i want)but when i did get one(from cooly) i got a xbox game called donte inferno now i had my eyes on this game ever since i heard about and ironically i think cooly was there . imean it down to the gameplay to the graphics to the story it was awesome. alil history on dantes inferno it started out as an epic poem in the divine comedy (along with purgatorio and pardiso) writtin by dante alighieri dante inferno however was just about dante rendition of hell he was like a tourist and with virgil asa guide it was like a museum so how are u gonna turn that into a action packed for the short attention span youth? u give a weapon a lot of bad guy to fight(duh) now on with the game it starts of with u as a soldier in a crusade and u come to find your wife(gasp) and ur father(kanye shugs) died and the same guy kills u ur not sent to hell to find the pure soul(wife -Beatrice)and you go through out hell dependin on the circle ur in u will have different monsters to fight like in the lust circle u have to fight im guessin she males but anyway as u go on u will be amused at the graphic i damn sure was and now the pro and con

pros :great gamplay ,graphic sometimes makes it look real,it has alot of hard puzzles

cons :the puzzlers could be sometimes be too hard for no reason,the camera angle changes on it own(idk if this is a con but im use to movin it myself ) itt was too fast i beat the game in a week

that's the verdict i suggest u buy it its a good game

synced up ppl

love life

masks the the life we love

or may not

we both hate life so the love of each other

grows stronger

and stronger

the similarities of our lifestyles makes us think soul mates

so life not so bad

and love is better

but one day the sky bright

but the mood in the room is as dark as the night sky around 12

the tension is high

we make jokes buts its too late

our love we had had faded

and became dim like a light bulb with low electricity

i wish for one more surge or shock

so we can do this life right

we both wanna die lets die in love

and turn the triggers against each other and meet up again

we sync ? right?

R.I.P Ebony& and otherstuff

my laptop battery just died :( its been a year only a year y must the good die ssooo young :(
well my godson (jeremiah) is born well was born the 6th u might be askin y i didnt put it up then because i just found out i would have found out sooner but i dONOT HAVE MY FONE AFTER A FUCKIN MONTH WHERE THE FUCK IS MY FONE LIKE FOH WHATS THE HELL IS WRONG WITH THIS SITUATION any way if u lookin for music i cant help u because there no way to record im soo pissed i wanna finish the team mixtape but this rate we never will ugh neway peace and much love to ya
peace