choices

i want to say the choices i have is like crazy not with life but with various things in my life hard to explain because if i do .... im sorry im so distracted  right now im in a car listening to chapter 5 trey songz bout to go to class my mind is like everywhere ill do thispost later on im that distracted

wtf is wrong with billy madison

ok im going back to class to get my insurence lincence 1-5sat 8-5 sun because of this i should be studing something im gonna do when i get done but im blogging because of something else im not gonna say what but i will say it changed me and i think i should listen to ex factor  by ms hill (smh again tho) like yesterday had so much shit it didnt feel likme one day woke up on swace floor went to sleep in moms bed (shes not here free crib till sat  :( im alone ) and i didnt think in that 24 hours or so that it could changed my opinon on so many things shit getting crazy with knives and pre rammy but i think its over like i wanna move on (to someone else ) but i cant fight the feeling i have around certain peple (this is what happen when u mix a raven with a dove) i kinda wish you could merge people then i wont be as bad actually if u merge some people from my fab 5 (main exes) it might be the perfect girl for me (ironicly not one of these fab 5think they are the onefor me they might be true but i doubt it) broke my skate wheel irode ixt for a while n felt so good i miss shadow(my skateboard) but thats a different story i gotta clean eat study then leave to take another quiz im gonna past one of these jawn  current mood =:l

i want my phone or personal computer (another quick post)

20 mins on the clock this time lets go
well i want a person Internet i mean i thank the library and all but i want to download and upload some music i fucking went off on that idk joint and i want the person it was about (hint one of my lisa millers) and the world to hear it besides that fact (17 mins) i have became more focused on art then just living i think the need to see hear and experience art is very important so im trying to make everything art pretty cool huh but anyway not that much has changed so much from the last post( had to change the video i was listening to ) i could stop here but im not even tho i have nothing else to talk about i have transpass and a few days so tomorrow regardless if someone hit im gonna catch random buses and start writing because i got concepts but i just need the right environment and my house is not one (changes song again) ironically the songs i wanna do is about the opposite gender and yet i have not one female type presence physically with me could that be the exact reason im making these songs ????(10 mins) maybe but i dont know because i .....just dont  and to correct what i said last time i dont need a women i extremely want one or maybe i do need one  hmm????



bye

quickest post ii ever did

oki got 12 mins to write a post shouldnt be soo hard but im in a public computer so everything is timed anyway today i got to certifacation one is for auto and home insureence the other is for debt (holla at me im doing things )  this month and the next i could be on my way to sucess i hope so im tired of being on the bottom (10mins) my lyrical content and flow/candence changed its almost scary about my skills im hungry btw didnt really eat all day once i leave tho ill get something to eat when i get home  but im proud of myself im actually makeing steps forward in life and next is a job then maybe school maybe (maybe) femaleswise idk because im not worried about them now (7mins) because as mr warhol said as soon as you sstop worrying about something it will come so the pyt will come when they wanna come my priorities should be god art and family in speaking of family alot of crime has been hitting philly and i got me a lil worryied my circle better not be involved any (awesome i have just been given an additional 15 mins which raised it to 20) but its now like i said peace and music and evolveing as a person hope i dont lose my uniqueness because to be honest thats why i dont wanna grow up also i got lost in the matrix not too long ago like i felt what i created in my head which is like weird it never happen but something happen in the matrix i got mad abaout it then in reality i was mad out of the blue (so if i think it emotionally could it change my mind emotionally ?) i wonder if i could finnally control my emotions but i get a phone on saturday or so hopefully
I WANT A WOMAN 

seems like i went contridicted myself but its true i want that love that a only a woman can give you





that nice fire and desire


(sigh 11mins left)


(sigh)
well i guess im done

peace,music,happiness